but it was sort of vague. some things she said had value. many in fact, but they weren't really what i was interested in hearing, or knowing ( Read more... )

i felt so weird at work yesterday. it's going to be so difficult for me to find someone steady. since apparently i do not mesh well with the youth of today. i will scare every guy with my expectations and rigid ideals. but i'm really not that stern. why can't anyone see that the strong countenance is merely a facade for the vulnerable mush ( Read more... )

last night was okay. it had its high points.

other than that i feel so inadequate with my generation. it's such an awkward feeling. i don't know how to change it.

well i went out with alberto last night. it was nice. odd. kind of. i don't know.
anyway.
tomorrow night we're celebrating lucy's birthday. it's bound to be a lot of fun. can't wait.

i feel odd today ( Read more... )

well. alright.

i can't let this get to me. thats it.
it was a vulnerable moment. i did nothing wrong. and i won't talk to him again. at least not initiated by me. i need to be in control.

....

okay, recovered. here i am.
lame excuse to contact me though. and those lame messages under his screen name. wow. really.

goodnight.

how the fuck dare you? really?
the audacity you have to say such things.

my heart is beating out of my chest and i don't know why. i haven't really cried since it happened. he doesn't deserve it.

nothing new ( Read more... )

well my desk is finished. it look good. and fits perfectly ( Read more... )