a brief update after a long hiatus ( Read more... )

last essay finished. had a long talk with jay about the future. the future is scary ( Read more... )

a few things ( Read more... )

we say the things we don't mean

we mean the things we don't say

i've been having really troubling dream about love. what do you do when love becomes a nightmare?

so that when they turn their backs on you, you'll have the chance to put the knife in ( Read more... )

here is some news ( Read more... )

i have a really good life. i know i whine a lot, but don't get me wrong- i understand all of the advantages i have. on the grand scheme of things, i live better, and have more going for me than the vast majority of the people on this planet. i feel very guilty that a times i don't seem to have the faculties to appreciate exactly what i have. i ( Read more... )

i've figured out what my problem is. i'm really scared of the future. i can't make the distinction between the future and the future becoming the present, and i'm wasting everything.

so when i was walking home from the mike office yesterday i came across three kittens living in a vent type thingy near RJ hall. today michele and i tried to be good samaritans and save them, but they proved too fast for us. Eastern European Ladies kept lauding our efforts, which only made us feel guilty for failing ( Read more... )