this was unexpected.
on the other hand, i am losing interest in this work thing. i should pretty much keep looking, right? otherwise...

the dean of biology is a tiny blond guitar player who looks obviously to your left when she talks to you. the petit bird told me i can graduate as a bio major without taking more chemistry "requirements." she then winked. and told me to go and apply for fellowships ( Read more... )

every Thursday night I spend my good hours on these job applications. this involves tweaking the lines of my resume with the delicate hands of a pianist. i have to add the teaching experience and still keep the rambling (all knees and limbs and long, jutting lines) beast in the rectangle of one page. this is some kind of exquisite torture. why ( Read more... )

i've been studying my weaknesses. not to cull them out but to circle the herd and learn names.

i grew a small crush on my career counselor as we talked. the result? I applied for associate in a consulting firm ( Read more... )

apparently the grey cat sleeps like a mink draped across my sleeping neck. a cat in my bed (when it doesn't escape to higher ground) has made me realize i must have relentlessly pummeled and pushed off some perfectly nice people.

i'm strangely obsessed with a real job. somehow, if i work in a young professional suit after graduation i will feel happy and complete. this suit will happen right after i hike the AT. and then graduate school?
i imagine consulting as both within my reach as a career choice and a blank ticket to tell people what to do in a confidant and ( Read more... )

i just heard that madeline l'engle died.

it's because i don't think i'm pretty.

i seem to like relationships as a means of self-punishment.