in case anyone out there in lj land still bothers to read about my expenditures, i'd figure i'd give a short briefing of all things slightly boring and mundane that are present in my day to day life. Actually, in all reality, things are going pretty well which is probably why I don't bother to write in here as much as I used to. There are no epic ( Read more... )

things are funny.

i keep having lucid dreams that relate back to about a year ago or so.

they make me want to be free.

I don't even think that anyone bothers to read this anymore. I think my days of teenage whining are officially over.

For anyone who does care enough to follow the oh so exciting ups and downs of my turbulent adulthood, here's what's eating me these days:

1.richmond va is a shit pit and i'm going nowhere here.
that means i have choices to make:

i can a ( Read more... )

At this time tomorrow night, after most of the east coast has drifted to sleep Hunter and I will be driving courageously into the night from our suburban residence in richmond to a tiny town in upstate new york. The place we are going is so remote and tiny that I've already forgotten it's name despite numerous mentions of it this past evening. ( Read more... )

I was unable to determine, as I ran through the thick wooded trailway as fast as my thin legs could carry me, if I was shouting after the outlines of three bodies melting into the sunset or if in my state of sheer terror, my thoughts were mixing with my actions and I was simply imaging that the words were leaving my mouth ( Read more... )

I've got a wordpress now.

find me here

http://www.wordpress.com/thinkspeakwrite 

 Now I know that my stopping adderall for a weekend shouldn't result in the tremors, incessant sleeping and headaches that I've developed and now won't go away despite the adderall back in my life.
i'm thinking that nasty motherfucking tick that bit the shit out of me has now made me a candidate for lyme disease.
what the fuck.

 You know, it really fucking sucks that no one supports my relationship with hunter, like i'm some kind of shitfuck that hurt him. wtf ever assholes. maybe you should look at your friend and how fucking horrible he is for me. i hate sitting here listening to an asshole beating around the bush about why hunter shouldn't live with me, just because i' ( Read more... )

Amidst the landscapes of concrete structures bustling with the ratrace of elitist status driven consumerism that I currently call my home, there are small glimmers that are giving life to my once dwindling hope for some kind of rejuvenation of spirit. Who would have thought my hometown sprawl of suburbia could offer me the things I've been yearning ( Read more... )

i'd like anyone who tries to tell me how to live my life to take an eight month period of refraining from any substance, any obsessive activity to pass time and take a fucking look at how difficult it is to be a goddamn human being ( Read more... )