Almost 3 years. I think I need to spend some quality time journalling again. It may help. Who knows. Nevermind, I'm not gonna do the journalling I need to here, 'cause this is a little to impersonal than I need. I just thought about that. There are people that may read this that I don't want to. Forget I even did this.

I just talked to my Uncle Scott for a half an hour. He's my mom's brother who, according to my other aunts and uncles, had always been very protective of and close to my mom. He called me about a week ago and I never returned his call until tonight. When I talk to my family, the conversation always ends up being about my step-dad, Mark, and ( Read more... )

has been very looong. I'm pretty exhausted from everything I've done. I'm at a loss for how I feel about myself after this weekend though. I spent a lot of time with the church group this weekend. They are all great people whom I'm having lots of fun hanging out with and am so extremely happy to be a part of. They are pretty different than the ( Read more... )

I have been trying harder that ever to be alone lately. To not have to need to be around people all the time. Through this, I've realized that I hate it. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love my alone times when I'm up for them. When I've had a stressful day at work and just wanna relax, take a shower, play with my hair & make-up & BeautiControl ( Read more... )

I sat in the dive thru lane at Taco Bell awaiting my turn to order that delicious fake mexican cuisine when I glanced up and saw a truck with an "=" sticker on it. This is not the first time I've ever seen one, but this one really stuck out at me for some reason. I slowly lifted my eyes to see that the passengers in the truck were two males, who ( Read more... )

So, I had a great plan in my mind for my life, as far as the next couple years go at least. But plans change. I know what I want, what I'd like to just easily walk away from, but I've recently found that I can't do that. I cried at first, but have had a couple days to think about things. My life's never been easy, yet I am blessed with a lot ( Read more... )

My mom passed away last Saturday. Not many of my friends knew her, but I am my mother. The friends that care so much for me and the friends I've had any kind of impact on, so has my mom, through me. My mom was probably the most loving, caring, generous, and accepting person I'll ever know in my life. (You had to be if you were gonna put up with ( Read more... )

That's the time they've said my mom has left. I just got the news yesterday. All the cancer medication and treatments aren't helping at all, therefore they are taking her off of everything. She won't even be going to dialysis anymore. The doctor has been quite amazing. I've never seen a doctor like him. No thanks will be good enough for what ( Read more... )

You're not even gone, and don't even know if you are going yet, but I miss you already. I'm not supposed to have these feeling for you anymore. I'm doing good with my life right now, and this, well this day was just a weird day. I've missed you since the last day I saw you. Now that I see you regularly again, you'd think I wouldn't miss you ( Read more... )

I'm letting go of my heart again ( Read more... )