the potential break up is more frightening than the actual break up ( Read more... )

i hate it when im trying to hookup with some anonymous guy for a quick blowjob and they ask me if i have nice tits right after i tell them what i mean when i say that i am a transguy. geez, maybe i can understand that question before i explain myself, but definately not after. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG PEOPLE!?

Did you ever have one of those days when your heart just hurts? you can logically combat every single insecurity you are feeling, but there is no changing your hearts mind for the time being. it sucks. I hate how one thing can cause your soul to remember every hurt you've been hiding from the world, and you know if you had just dealt with it ( Read more... )

i hate writing introductions and conclusions!

and i hate that i can't find my glasses!

so apparently getting wasted on beer and pills is the same thing as taking prescribed psych meds. oh, and i guess im not an adult yet because i don't have a lot of monetary responsibilities.

i totally miss him. i didn't think i'd miss him like this, but i do. Im in illinois right now at my mom's house. tomorrow we will hop in the car and set out for olympia. wish me luck.

i just took an axe to a pallet. it felt good.

week ten is such torture. booooo. only the latin test to go, and then i party. i wish i didn't have to party sober. oh well, maybe i'll get stoned or something.

saturdays are so fucking great.

im so tired. i wish i could start sleeping. tonight is another perfomance of the clouds, and then the cast party. that should be fun. i can't wait to stand around akwardly while a bunch of people get drunk around me. sobriety is so much fun. no, but really, it should be enjoyable ( Read more... )