So, here am I. In a state of shock. I don't know what I want to say, but, I'm sure my fingers will manage to find something to type. It's amazing to me how things happen to give me hope for my sanity and my future. I mean, here's this person that I trusted, that has turned his back on me, and, walked away. He'll be better off without me, I'm ( Read more... )

Yeah, so, I'm sick of people treating me like I'm just some disposable possession. I'm just there when it's convenient for them. When it suits their purposes. I'm sick of being the one hurt by shit, and, sick of being the nice one that always says "good luck" and "best wishes" and "no regrets." I can't believe I thought for a second this guy ( Read more... )

So, does that mean his job or us? I don't know. I can't believe how easy it is for people to ignore me. It's unreal how inconsequential it makes me feel. But, I'm not letting this get me down. I've been down that road one too many times, and, I'm not going to stress out over it. Sure, it's sad as hell to think that Ben and I are finished. ( Read more... )

I took Brian's kayak out for a little bit today, it's hard work, but, really fun! I can't wait til I can afford to get Finn a doggie life jacket. I just think it'll be easier to get him into the kayak if I have the life jacket with the handle on top. :) And, in case he gets worn out or something, it would just make me feel better. Today was a ( Read more... )

The day is beautiful. I had a great interview this morning at a Ford dealership. He wants to hire me, I just have to get a copy of my driving record. I don't know what they're really going to look for, but, hopefully, that doesn't prevent me from getting this job. It's a salary job, and, the salary is more than I've made in the past, so, that's ( Read more... )

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So, I wonder how it is that you can give someone so much of yourself and your heart and soul and life and time and trust. And, in return they can't even acknowledge a text message. It's not a lot to ask someone to answer a question or even just acknowledge that they received something you sent them. But, it does speak volumes as to the character ( Read more... )

Yeah, so, Ben's an asshole and I'm a bitch. And, we're fine. I think it was about time for us to have a big blow-out. It's been about six months. ;) And, it's been since May since we saw eachother, so, we talked for about an hour and a half last night. He was basically being a chicken, which I told him is typical. What's not typical is the ( Read more... )

Yeah, so, here's the entry I really didn't want to be writing any time soon. But, I guess it's better to do it now instead of later. So, last night, we talked. I knew something was different. And, sure enough, I got the "I really care a lot about you, but...." talk. That's almost my personal favorite. Of course, anyone that knows me knows ( Read more... )

I went to dance class tonight. It was just as fun as last Monday! I'm so glad that I went. We learned how to swing dance. Last week was the tango. :) I'm really fortunate to have found this place, as it is very inexpensive and tons of fun. I met an older guy tonight that teaches pilates! What luck! I love pilates, so, he is going to let me ( Read more... )