So heres my Socal update ( Read more... )

I hate when you like someone more than they like you. yep...its retarded.

I miss Joseph.

I've met someone that makes me feel like i'm ready to love. Okay maybe not that serious, but I think he's a keeper. I actually shouldn't say "met" considering i've known the guy for a few years now. I like who I am when i'm around him. Im myself. I don't get all shy and quiet like I usually do when I like a boy. I just hope that he feels the same ( Read more... )

So Joseph proposed to me last Tuesday at Lipstick. We are half serious. I love him to death and I know he feels the same. He didn't have a ring to give me so he made one...out of a flyer from the table. Yeah it was great. I can't wait till I get a real ring ( Read more... )

Im so bored today. I met a cute model boy on Monday night. Me, him, Stef, and his friends are all supposed to meet up at Moscow tonight. Should be fun. Im broke and I need money.

So I went and laid out on the beach by myself. I got pretty tanned, which is awesome. I took me, my ipod, and my journal. It was lovely. A beautiful day. A lot to write about. Lots on my mind. I really care about someone right now, but i'm scared to get involved because I got my heart viciously broken a few months ago. Then theres the one that ( Read more... )

She doesn't see the beauty in herself that they see. Her life always manages to feel incomplete. No matter how hard she tries or how many mistakes she makes, she always wants to fall asleep and never be awake. Its just seems easier this way. How many more times can it happen before its too late ( Read more... )

I don't know why I bother to keep certain people in my life. It seems like i'm the only one putting any kind of effor into certain friendships/relationships that I have. I decided i'm not going to do that anymore. If anyone wants to hang out with me or have me in there life, they can call me ( Read more... )

I completely disapointed myself Tuesday night. I got really drunk. I got home and I got really sad. After everything I've been through and trying to get better and be a better person...I go out and do something that I told myself I would never do again. I mean I go out and i'll have a beer or two, but I wont get drunk and I wont drink liquor. ( Read more... )