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relationships
what is wrong with me. i feel so lost right now. all my friends are moving on and i feel like im still here. everyone is moving out, getting married, and having babies. while i stay here wondering what the hell to think about my life. im so far behind. im sick of being sick, so my belly is so messed up its not even funny i just found out i ( Read more... ) -
a day off
so today is my day off. guess what in sept. im trying to go to ohio to see kerrie. i have a wedding i have to go to this weekend jill is getting married. the bach. party was so much fun. i love my friends and right now im in a good mood and nothing and no one can make me feel like shit. brian and i are getting a long very good. last night i ( Read more... ) -
home again
we get to come home to nasty weather, its rainy. it was so beautiful up north. i wish i could live there but theres just no olive graden. i dont understand how these people cant live without any good places to eat. but i had a great time. the weather was great i had good company and that made it all better. the sights were great and it was ( Read more... ) -
im gone in a week
i am finally going on a vacation. well im going up north to my little house in the woods. i know a few of you have been up there and you all know how beautiful it is. i love and i cant want to get away from all the shit around here. im so sleepy all the time and i get pissed of so easly right now that i just need to be away from everyone. but ( Read more... ) -
sick and sick
well i am really sick right now and i have to go get these scary test done on thrusday. i have to get a upper g.i and a abdomen ultrasound done. theres something wrong with me belly. well i really would like a new job that pays more but i really like my work right now. theres just one more thing that needs to be fix and then everything will be ( Read more... ) -
what is life about
we think we really know what we are going to do with our lives but truthfully i really dont think any of us has a clue. tomorrow i have to go to the doctors because i am really really sick and i dont know what or why i am so sick. i really hate life and myself right now nothing is going right for me. funny thing is yesterday i had my dads 60 b- ( Read more... ) -
for the moment
how do you know what is right and what is wrong? i guess we will never know. bry and i are doing good again and that is very nice right now because i feel like i am happy again. its really hard to feel that feeling for me. i do have to say i dont know how much more i can take of some shit that i dont need. -
no more drunks
She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette ( Read more... ) -
maybe someday
maybe someday i will get a way from here. i know mommy i can fly away. far far away were the bad things cant get me. it will all come around and we will all see that there wasnt anything to worry about. im going to become a great dancer. i will tap my little way to the top. whats that, you think i can sing and dance. by golly your right. i ( Read more... ) -
well i was...
i was going to write bad things and sad things but fuck that. i just found out what grade i got in my english class and its an A- but ill take it becuase it was a hard class and a lot of people had to drop and oh my gosh i just ran around the house becasue im so happy ( Read more... )