Except Los Angles is not on fire. Goleta is. The air at my house is black. The fire is 24% contained and burning 8,300 odd acres as of Sunday 7/6 around 10 pm. We are evacuating the horses, but the fire isn't threatening the school. So I am going to hopefully bring them to campus stables. I am going to be VERY busy getting everything ready to care ( Read more... )

Life is a knotted ball of yarn, twisted and complex. Too many goals, too many things to do. Every time I get one piece fixed I realized it screwed everything else to hell. I don't even know how many pieces are tied up here. maybe I'll know more later, maybe I will be able to see straight later. I love life is my new mantra, maybe if I say it enough ( Read more... )

In my typical style, not that I have been on LJ publicly in a very long time, I cant say what I want as well as the song that is stuck in my head, So song lyrics it is. Enjoy ( Read more... )

This summer has changed so many things. I have grown more then I ever remember having grown in my life. When school starts i will see who I have grown towards and away from. Please, dont take offense if I don't spend time with you and I used to. So much has changed.

The stress must be going to my head
3 breakdowns in half as many days.
nightmares again.
a never ending non-medicatable head ache.
no appitite.
threw up twice in as many days.
lack of motivation.

yep the stress is slowly killing me.
at least the summer will be relaxing... NOT

My dad has been selected for jury duty. no big deal right. wrong. its on a rape trial. he and my mom are getting over protective and weary of all males who come near me. Ack. why cant they give it a rest. Im not about to be date raped, that requires going on a date ( Read more... )

Oh so busy. But I made icons.
I'm proud of myself

Horse show details: very good rides, soooo happy with my big guy. Best we've done in a while

School: counting the days... more free time reading a bunch of Anne Rice

Socail: rerconnedting with friends I have been neglecting, or just never got to know.

overall: lifes pretty damn good.

She's back again, finally ( Read more... )

If you all hadn't figured it out by now. I have been feeling rather shitty. My mom and I are fighting again and it is worse the before. I have decided that I am just biding my time through high school until I can leave and not come back. Hopefully I can avoid taking out my anger and stress on all of you. But I can't guarantee anything right now ( Read more... )