my heart is racing inside my chest and i feel like i am going to cry. pleasant, no? very much so no. i am going fucking nuts being locked away from my friends like this. i mean, this shouldnt bother me so much. i think part of all of this is i started my period today (which, i know, i know, many did not want to know.) and i am very emotional. i ( Read more... )

yeah... i havent updated in a long time. um... i'm uber grounded. and a big huge flaming idiot. end of story ( Read more... )

why you gotta go an fuck with me?

why why why?

i'm feeling a little better today. not looking foward to tomorrow at fucking all. the shit is gonna go down, but its cool. me and lacie and kyle and probably marty are gonna go chill somewhere where there is no war going on. fucking in dont want everyone to split up. i like how it is. but some people dont. and those people will have their way. what ( Read more... )

you know, i think about it. and i am really not as interesting as some people. i am not as cool, my stories are less interesting than theirs, i have less to say. i understand why i am just a fly on the wall. as much as i want to be noticed and accepted, i just cant do it. i cant let go of myself. i cant be someone i'm not. i'm just not as cool. who ( Read more... )

...or in this case, the woman.

i hate missing out on things. especially my friends. that's the one thing i hate about being grounded. i miss my friends so much. i guess i never really realize just how much my friends mean to me unless i cant see them. i think thats part of the reason the hospital was so hard on me. i fucking want to be able to go ( Read more... )

alright. i hold in my lap the one, the only.... the "Would You Rather...?" book!!! back by popular demand, and wanting to be read on the internet. here's some good ones:

1. Would you rather...vomit marbles -or- swear cheese?

things to consider: projectile vomiting, jogging, the flu.

2. would you rather... have living eyebrows that crawl about your ( Read more... )

yep yep yep... i'm still grounded. i finished my room for the most part, though. good times. it actually looks nice and now that i have all that crap outta there it looks much, much bigger. i put up the x-mas lights. it looks absolutely fabulous. i got to leave the house today. yay!!! my mom let me go to the park with jason. it was fun. especially ( Read more... )

i've been home since 2:55. its now 5:28. i havent been able to get a hold of my mom and i have no fucking clue where she is. i have: checked my LJ/myspace like 15 times. showered, eaten, watched tv. i'm gonna shower again, because i am bored. i will update more intensely later.

till then,