fuck
fights are horrible.
i hope nothing happens any further.
im so freaked out..
still.

i just want to pass out.
and i feel so sick.

When our time is up ( Read more... )

i love adventures.
and rachel.
i hate leaving her.
and i hate coming back to everett.
i got my coldstone.
just like karin's.
the gotta have it size and all.

i liked today.
i love it in seattle.
except the creepy people.

but life can be pretty amazing.
i love you rachel.
:] <33
thank you for a fun fun day.

mmmk
time to go watch tv.

and i like it

except i JUST noticed that the little girl has no shirt on.

haha.

erich(7:19:55 PM): we should hang out for the sunset

so cute.

Seattle adventure tomorrow.
woohoo.

i just dont know what to think anymore. how to think. what to think about. everything i think about turns out to be a disaster. and i'm tired of that. i just want to be able to think about something and have it not make me want to cry for once. it seems that everything, and i mean EVERYTHING, leads to something that makes me sad. that's just wrong ( Read more... )

thinking about it ( Read more... )

HAAATEE
-early mornings.
-ugly girls that get hot guys.
-fat scene girls that are totally annoying.
-people that think they are 'the shit'.
-freshmen&next years sophomores.
-people leaving.
-being so far away.
-owwies.
-BIG liars.
-jerks.
-bitchy girlfriends that don't deserve their boyfriends.
-myspace.
-JAPAN.
-EVERETT.

LOOVEE-late nights ( Read more... )

care to shoot me ( Read more... )

i hate today
merry frickin christmas
yeah right

2 years. it feels weird
but i think its better this way.

why couldnt i have had a nice, normal life
normal family, living in one place my whole life.

i dont like this.
i dont like boys either.
i dont like dads.
i dont like holidays.
i dont like anything really.

he doesnt know who i am
if i died, he wouldnt realize it
he doesnt remember how close we were
how we dated
anything.
i want him to come back to us
and remember it all
and let life go on.

or let him remember me
and we can keep our friendship good
instead of all the stupid stuff
and maybe he'll be the old damean again.