i never ever get a day off work and when i finally do get a day off of work no one is home i once again see that i have no friends everyone is already out hanging out with everyone they wish to spend time with lifes a bitch i wish i could find my cell phone so i could get numbers off of it but oh well lifes a bitch im slowly and surley finding ( Read more... )

life has been better lately... ive been struggling with relgion and finding a place to belong ive also been struggling with constantly feeling like i have no friends it seemed as is everyone ive i grown up with had suddenly turned cruddy alothough alot of the people im hanging out with again will continue to hurt me ive decided to pretend as if it ( Read more... )

lifes a mess right now no ones here for me im all alone to deal with shit i cant even cope with the cutting must begin again a razor is the only thing that seems to understand my pain thats why im so quick to use it i guess ill go smoke a blunt if that doesnt help me i have no choice cutting is the answer fuck whoever thinks its not

why do i always feel unsure im unsure of myself im unsure of life im unsure of friends no one ever calls me i always call them its like i wait and i wait but it never comes calls from other people never come im always the phone call maker i hate this i hate the way i view myself i wish when i looked into the mirror and saw a pretty somebody rather ( Read more... )

keysha i miss your funny ass your nowhere to be seen anymore i hope garfeild treats you right aviod them grimmy spainyards and watch out for them cruddy nigger lovers i love yah man

today there was a bit of sunlight in my day it could have been so much better then it was but compared to yesterday i feel like i can pee perfume im mad my grades arent the way that i want them and im not going to get straight a's that was my goal buti just need to work harder to get my work in on time and stay on top of things because thats when i ( Read more... )

last night the feds cane to see me my mom called them on me because i was ready to run away far away from here as soon as i leave i could give less of a fuck what happens to me its like life just suddenly started on a downward spiral that doesnt seem to want to shoot back up im really reallt scared because i feel really depressed and hopless like ( Read more... )

i think today i actually smiled maybe for a little bit but it sure as hell felt good every once in a while my zoloft decides to work so i guess im off to enjoy the little bit of my good day i have left

today at school my best friend go tinto a fight she is so mad she is tranferring outta woodbridge im gonna miss her with her im like a crazy dork i wonder if ill change back to the old disturbing me or if ill be able to stand on my own two feet somtimes i just dont feel strong enogh i feel i feel... hopeless it really sucks to be me i hate life i ( Read more... )

today has sucked life sucks i dont know why i bother even trying to attend school im not tlike the rest of the kids at school im depressed im always sad people look at me weird i cant take it no one understands im all alone my mom is sick my kitten is a lil bad ass i feel as if i barley have any friends im co dependant on pot and life is just a ( Read more... )