Meg:

Have you ever heard the expression "To really appreciate what you have, you have to lose it first"?

I lost both M and Geoff, and it's Geoff that I wanted back.

It's true, I fucked up. I should've never had called M, cause yes, he's a nice guy, and yes, there was lust and all, but I needed more.

I needed someone I loved.

And in all honesty, M just ( Read more... )

We're back together!

Well I have to go tattoo! Ttyl!

I just tattooed my dad. Like a whole tattoo! Stencil, outline and color. Brand spankin' new. Its things like these that really cheer me up.

But I'm still bummed. I finally figured out what happened.

So my relationship hit a bumpy road. You all read about it. The fighting with Geoff a couple of weeks ago.

God, getting that phone number was really bad ( Read more... )

I wrote him a letter. He wanted me to draw him a picture. Instead, this came out:

Tears like heartbreak.

I should come with a warning:
WARNING: may cause heartbreak
not to be trusted

I'm sorry for calling you.
I'm sorry for interrupting your life.

I'm sorry for liking you as much as I do.

I'm sorry if you fell inlove with me.
Really, I am.

I'm sorry I'm an ( Read more... )

And my heart just shattered again.

Every few minutes. It feels like someone is rewinding it, and watching it fragment again on instant replay.

This horrific feeling on a constant loop.

I hurt so much.

Why is it that to do whats right, you need to hurt everyone.

Or atleast the people you love.

Or in my case, the person you love more than anything. I miss ( Read more... )

It went well. Alot better than I thought it would. Yes, I cried a bit. Yes, I think he did too, but we both knew we had to stop.

At one point he said something along the lines of "on some days we weren't even friends anymore. We were just emotional baggage."

We knew we had to mend our friendship. We both thought maybe we just rushed into everything ( Read more... )

I guess you don't know me. Or atleast you don't really know me.

I'd cut off my own foot if someone I loved needed it.

I'm not saying I'm saintly or anything. Far from it.

I rarely take matters into my own hands to make myself feel happy.

I just want to be happy.

For two weeks I've been acting just to make sure my best friend is happy.

Unfortunately, I ( Read more... )

I slept in. Urgh. I didn't get to bed till 3. ME and M were lying in bed for hours after finishing watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. We just held onto eachother.

"I'm sorry sweetie. Its 2. You have to go before my parents flip out."

So I walked him home.

And I kissed him. I kissed him. Nothing new really. I kiss him on the cheek on ( Read more... )

"its 4:15 and im still awake....what is it about you? i cant seem to get you off of my mind" -M, from an email I just read.

I mean, seriously, what else can I say besides Wow.

Geoffs never emailed me or even called me saying that. He doesn't just out of nowhere tell me he loves my eyes and thinks I'm beautiful. And the only time Geoff lies awake ( Read more... )

Excuse the grammar, but thats almost what he asked. I can't remember it word for word.

He's so damn adorable.

So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing, I am captivated

"This one sounds like a keeper." -My older sister.

She felt bad for cancelling our plans since I was going to introduce her to M today.

The other night (I think Saturday night), we lied in my bed, ( Read more... )