So, yesterday, I couldn't wait any longer and I had to send Doron an sms asking him if he got the package - even though I was almost sure that he would have picked it up by now, I just needed the actual confirmation that it was in his hands, that he read it and that he saw the disc. He told me that he got it and that he was going to send me an e- ( Read more... )

11-7-08

I'm pissed that Doron hasn't responded yet - God knows that he got the e-mail, because that much is obvious, he checks his mail like every half an hour and especially now that he isn't studying anymore, I'm sure with all that free time that a lot of it is being spent on the computer. I hate that I don't know what he's doing or anything like ( Read more... )

I just want to scream out, "I love you" so loud that he can't help but hear and then I want to continue screaming it until it sinks into his thick stubborn skull that he is the only person in the world that I want to be with... now and forever. 
I spoke with him today and asked him if we could meet up before I left but his last final is on Sunday so ( Read more... )

There are so many thoughts running through my head all the time, it's ridiculous... there are so many things that I need to be doing that I just can't seem to do ( Read more... )

I'm really missing Doron. I'm trying so many different things to fill this hole in my life... but none of them are really helping. I started going out with Gal, but being with Gal actually makes me miss Doron more because there are so many things that I used to do to Doron that Gal doesn't know or like. I miss the little reactions whenever i would ( Read more... )

Last night was so nice  - Gal and I sat on the beach and smoked a little and talked. It was so refreshing to click witha guy like that - we really get eachother. I still think that he's a little cocky - but it's attractive - somebody who is so sure of himself. He is intense - everything about him. He makes me feel attractive and desired. I fell ( Read more... )

Well, I didn't see him on Thursday, I sent him an sms, "Are you on campus?" but he didn't answer (fucker!). Went out on a date on Friday night - sweet guy, but no spark. We went out to a restaurant where he bought me a fairly expensive appetizer, dessert and 2 glasses of delicious white wine. Then he drove me to the beach where we sat and talked - ( Read more... )

I'm sitting and crying in the bushes were Doron and I had sex last time we broke up. Was it fate that brought us here the last time? Last night, the date was nice. He was such a gentleman - pulled out my seat for me, opened the car door for me, paid for me without blinking an eye and drove me home - all things that I always wished Doron would have ( Read more... )

I'm feeling more alive today that I've felt in some time - I paid $1000 today towards my ticket to Hawaii - I'm also feeling a little broke. I think I need to take the advice that I gave Doron yesterday - concentrate on your studies and don't worry. He is really taking this studies seriously, he told me that he's studying from 8am - 9pm everyday - ( Read more... )

Woke up later than I should have and did zero studying. I'm going to be in serious big shit if I can't just get my act together. I've decided to start taking better care of myself - exercise at least 3x/week (walking/biking), eat less chocolate and junk food, get waxed - instead of shaving, put lotion on my whole body every night, stop picking my ( Read more... )