trying to think of the best way to bring up cutting with the doctor tomorrow...
at least without bursting into tears and pulling my trousers down...
hmm....shit

I haven't been on here for about 3 months ( Read more... )

I hate it.
I hate being at uni, being at home, being around people, being on my own, smoking, not smoking...where do i belong???

Had a shitty day at work, and a row with the mother, quelle suprise...
Cycled back to uni, jumped in the shower, cut...deeper than i intended to.
Spent 20 minutes trying to staunch the flow with housemate's white (!) towel ( Read more... )

me again.........
whilst having  a sneaky fag out my windowihave just encountered possibly the biggest spider ever seen by the human eye....
sssshhhhiiiiiiiiiittttttttt.........................
hahahhahahahhahahaa

Skipped the doctors yesterday ( Read more... )

I feel like i'm gonna come unstuck any moment ( Read more... )

My day so far has consisted of walking into town (about an hour walk), and then sitting in Starbuck's for 4 hours drinking black coffee after black coffee...scrawling out what i intend to say to the doctor tomorrow ( Read more... )

The last three nights, i have had approximately 7  hours sleep...in total ( Read more... )

blah blah blah...
my head is so full of crap i don't even know where to begin writing....
so i won't

infact this has gotta be the most useless entry ever written...
ha - but you're still reading it...aren't ya, aren't ya!!!

meh, i hate being at home

Shit man - t'was the hardest thing i have ever had to do...right there in 30 mins.
A very wise person (!) is somewhat responsible for making me go through with it, and for that i am *extremely* grateful, and i will talk to you soon poo face!!

I:
- don't really know what to feel now.
- told her about the bulimia (lying only once throughout the ( Read more... )