why don't you just call me or comment or something...are you like afraid of something? or just hoping it will go away?
i guess

in other news school has been taking up my time...read read and read more

i like the class discussion though

mikes mom called me and left a message, it was nice to hear the things she said.

i've been watching degrassi episodes like crazy on You Tube...sooo good, totally one about eating disorders..i almost cried ( Read more... )

on saturday christa and carolyn gave me a b-day party, the crowd was small but exactly what i wanted, the conversations were awesome, carolyn got me new shoes, i love them, i had fun thanks guys, anyway after that i went to the whistle stop with noelle, then i proceeded home ( Read more... )

well i'm 25 now..i guess that's good, i don't know it doesn't really matter much to me ( Read more... )

i called and he refused to talk to me...just didn't want to ...i'm just wondering why?...if it hurts so much...well oh well he did this he chose this,, i won't let myself cry about it...my mom has called me like 3x tonite to make sure i was okay ( Read more... )

sometimes i rock corduroy like my baby ( Read more... )

i think its time i took those pills now

this sucks

good nite

today i am dealing a bad bout of anxiety, i like that i can now identify what it is. but i don't like that i have anxiety , it makes me want to take the pills that make me sleep for days

sometimes it is harder than other days

so i had these dream where i was in like an ocean or lake and i was about to drown, i knew that there was a life guard close by, but i knew i wouldn't be able to hold on until he came, so i let myself float under and drown, i knew that i would have to drown a bit before i could be saved, and i just trusted that i would be okay....so i rememerbe ( Read more... )

so even though sunday was a bit of a set back...i still think i am moving forward, the only person that can sabataoge me is me and i will not let myself do that, i have been taking good care of myself and my doggie and my cat and my home, i am eating right and everytime i get on the scale i've lost more, things are only going to get better...other ( Read more... )