i want to live on a ranch in south america. i am enjoying being alive very much.  school is good and now i get a break for a few weeks.  my next mission is spanish.  i like julian. i have a vulgar idea of a good time.  i like never having a boyfriend. although once he is through making love to his ego, i hope i can have my turn ( Read more... )

Just ready to be somewhere else. No longer feel at home, even in my own home.  Isolated, I was gone too long.  Sorry for putting me what i put you through.

yes. obstacles demolished, and a straight path is cleared up in front.  old loves new loves they do not mean anything to me.  i could leave right now forever and never look back.  i have not felt this happy, since... since never.  i have never felt this happy at all.  this sense of freedom and this knowledge that one can acquire, and the best part ( Read more... )

 i am all better now

i believe the youth is being sucked right out of me.

hi ( Read more... )

i get surgery next week.  and ill be a vegetable. ian doesnt know how to pick up after himself though. so i'll only get to be a semi vegetable. and then he takes all my vicodin, i should kill him. work is gay, the mall is a big faggot. but i get a raise, it'll probably be a quarter. i have a lot more hours so now i dont have to do quite so much ( Read more... )

i am all settled now. rents $300 cheaper every month. i still work in china town and have no hours so im poor and i really need to find a full time job. moving in was a big bitch, we had to find an apartment and move in all in one day. but we somehow succeeded. lakeside is really strange sometimes,  it kinda reminds me of being younger and the ( Read more... )

we went out for a valentines dinner this afternoon.
we returned, i opened the door and my apartment felt like a big shower all steamy and stuff.
i took a step inside turned on the light and my aparment was not my apartment it was the ocean.
there was water everywhere. that shit was flooded to hell. inches of water, everything that was on the floor ( Read more... )

boys, yeah their pretty fucking stupid.