Love Stays Strong - Chapter 9
Title: Love Stays Strong
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Angst and lots of drama as well.
Rating: PG 13
Summary: Reo's conversation with Jin when the latter told him about Kame's decision to 'give up' on their relationship. He could not believe the strong-willed Kame could easily give up just like that, Reo know it must have hurt so much to even say those words to his brother. Akame's last memory together, before they finally call all quits.
Disclaimer: Awwwww, character are really not mine. I'm so sad.
A\N: Really sorry for the long wait!~ Read below for my reason for not updating for, like almost to a month now? This chapter is being re-Written all over again. No beta-reader for this so I'm really sorry for any mistakes. Sigh~
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Chapter 9 - A promise made
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Reo looked at his brother with a look of disbelief written in his eyes, he refused to take in the words that had just been said, he knew Jin is a man that tells no lie but still it is so hard to accept the fact that Kazuya-kun have given up on their one precious love, that is so unlike him, so different from the man that had his determination high up in his chest the other time they met.
Kazuya-kun is strong, is he? It might hurt so much to go through the pain but times like this, he is not the sort to give up, and he will not collapse till the very end. He will continue to strive on, bringing the last piece of their love, hope for it to mend with the many small pieces shattered, and scattered in several places. Then everything will be alright, like a scene changing to the past, moving on as if nothing had ever happened.
Eyes never tell lies, so that of Jin’s, with that look he flashed and the body movements of his, he could not have told a lie. Reo pretended not to have seen that look as he chose not to believe his brother though he knew it’s all but the truth.
“Onii-chan, you’re lying. Just a few days ago, Kazuya-kun was determined to get you back in his life so much that he won’t stop trying till his very last of exhaustion point. How could that change in just a split second?” Reo spluttered out his anger at his brother who just looked down on the floor, that image of his brother rises up his anger even more thus he closed the gap between them, grabbing the collar of Jin roughly, an action that he had never had done with his elder brother, this is his first being violent to his one and only brother.
Reo looked at him with so much anger, it seems like he was taking advantage of this situation since Jin could not move a muscle from waist down though that wasn’t the reason, for once Reo was letting his anger took control of him.
“Even if Kazuya-kun did told you all that, it must have hurt so much for him to make that decision! The pain, the exhaustion, those bittersweet memories that you’ve once shared is making him fall one step at a time! It hurts remembering, recalling to a memory that have a high possibility of it not happening again! It’s all because of you that he is hurting right now! Don’t you even realize that, onii-chan?” Reo voiced out, not once letting go of the firm hold he had on his brother.
Jin remained silent as he listens to his brother, allowing the younger man to vent his anger on him. He could have push Reo hard enough to make himself free of the hard grip but he did not, for deep inside he knew the truth, his baby brother has been hurting too amidst the mess that he have created. The emotions in Reo, he have to let them go, for once he wants to be the big brother that he could not be since the occurrence of the accident. He is always dependent on others but all he ever wanted is for someone to rely on him, as seen from this scene.
Reo stops, loosening the grip on his brother as he looked up at him with unshed tears, so much pain in his heart that was left unsaid, that was only for him to know, not allowing anyone else to enter his small world.
That same Reo he knew is slowly breaking right in front of him, softly whispering, tears threatening to fall any second as he struggles to speak.
“Why aren’t you doing anything? Not saying anything, not using your hands to do something, you’re allowed to hurt me in times like this, onii-chan!” He loosens the hold even more, tears spilling, choking out the words he have always wanted to say, “I want my brother back! I want the old Akanishi Jin who smiles, who shouts, who hit me on the head when I made him mad! I want him back! Give me back my brother! Give him back!!” Reo shouts, shaking his brother hysterically.
Somehow the conversation had turned from the topic of Jin’s relationship with Kame to their brotherly relationship that has disappeared too since the accident as their close relationship was affected as well.
“The Akanishi Jin I knew will never give up on any occasion despite how terrible the situation is. He will go after what is his, no matter how impossible it might seem. Therefore onii-chan, please don’t give up on your relationship. Please bring my brother back to me, to Kazuya-kun, to us. Bring him back. I beg you, onii-chan.” Reo pleads.
Jin could only give his younger brother a sad look, he have not played his part as an elder brother after all, he was clearly taken off guard when Reo suddenly spoke his inner feelings, he thought he would feel relieve letting him speak his mind but in the end he realized that he has inflicted pain to his brother, recalling those times he had given Reo the cold treatment when all the younger one ever wanted was to comfort his elder brother.
I’m truly sorry, Reo. To have to hurt you, in this condition I’m in, I end up hurting the ones I love. I’m hurting everyone I care about in this whole World, even Yamapi. The accident happened, I can’t pretend as if nothing had happened. That is why we could not return back to the past, Reo. Things can never be the same again.
“I’m afraid that Akanishi Jin died in me the moment the accident happened, Reo. He can never return in this current condition I am in. He is gone, Reo. That is why you have to accept your brother as I am right now.” Jin tried to make out a small smile as an assurance but he eventually failed, results him in biting his lip nervously.
“I’m not following my heart. I’m doing what I think is for the best. That is why … tonight will be the last memory for Kame and me. Our one last memory till our story closes.” Jin closes his eyes sadly.
Reo gave his brother a thoughtful look, he understands yet a part of him wants more explanation than he had been given. He wasn’t trying to get his brother’s affection when he broke down in front of him. All he ever wanted was to have the cheerful, high spirited Akanishi Jin back in their family. He was hopeful of the high possibility in getting back the cheerful side to his brother if he talked to him but in the end, as long as his elder brother is still paralyzed, that brother of him will be buried deep inside him.
He nods his head, releasing the hold on his elder brother completely and without a word, he made his way to the stairs, walking up to his bedroom, stopping when he heard a faint shout, his brother calling up to him, his face in worry.
“I still don’t like the decision that you’ve made but because you’re my brother, I will support you. That’s all I can do for you, even as your younger brother, I’m not capable of making you happy. That is why I will cheer you from a distance, and keep on supporting you.” Reo bit his lip, “Make well with the last memory you will create with Kazuya-kun. Good night, onii-chan.” With that being said, Reo continued climbing up the steps to his bedroom.
“Good night, Reo.” In the lonely night, Jin whispered back, looking at his brother’s retreating form, a small thud signaling the end of their emotional conversation.
One last memory, he thought, waiting patiently in the dark for his beloved to come, and then they will create one last memorable memory to be remembered.
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Kame put his pen down, reading the content once again before folding the piece of paper into three, placing it into the white envelope nicely. The letter remained untouched for a short moment as he stares onto it, glancing at the pen as he takes the small object and scribbles something on the front of the envelope.
To Nakamaru
The decision is made. There is no time for any changes to it. Tonight will be their very last memory together and his very last.
Slowly turning the door knob, careful not to make any sound, Kame tip-toed into the guest room where his friend is sleeping soundly on the comfy king size bed, he looks so peaceful lying in a position like that, as noted by Kame, looking over his sleepy friend.
You’re a great brother, Nakamaru. You treat me like one and you take good care of me during the critical moments. Thank you for being there when I need someone by my side. I will miss you.
He thought sadly, placing the letter on the dressing table, taking a last glance at his friend before making a move, walking out of the bedroom, slowly closing the door after him.
I’m sorry I have to disappoint you.
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The door bell rings as the clock strikes 12. Jin stares at the door blankly for one second, taking a deep breathe he placed his hands on his wheelchair, about to push it forward when he heard footsteps coming from the stairs.
He turned to see Reo walking towards him, “Don’t worry about the door. I’ll get it. Just wait for him in your bedroom, onii-chan.” He pats his brother’s shoulder, his eyes watching his every movement intently till he is gone from his sight and into the bedroom on the ground level.
Why must two souls, two hearts beating for each other have to part like this? So much love, so much pain causing them to break apart. Reo thought for a minute, heaving out a small sigh of sadness as he continued on the steps to the entrance door, opening it without any hesitation, a broken looking Kamenashi Kazuya came into view.
Indeed Kame looks so fragile, his arms hugging to his chest in cold even though he had his jacket on, it’s late at night furthermore it’s the winter season in Kyoto, the wind is amazingly cold causing the smaller one to shiver tremendously.
“Kazuya-kun, come on in. It’s so cold outside.” Reo let the other one in, turning to face the fragile man in front of him soon after, “Onii-chan is waiting for you in his bedroom.” He said, pointing to a room not far from them, seeing the small nod from the latter, Reo continued on, “I’ll leave you two alone. Excuse me.” With that, he bowed and made his way back to his own bedroom on the second floor.
Meanwhile Kame stood still, staring at the closed door and waited for a moment before slowly walking the remaining distance to his beloved’s bedroom, he was just a few meters apart from him now, everything seems so near. Slowly and gracefully, he turns the door knob to the room.
Jin, this will be our last memory. Will you remember me years in the future? Even if you’ve found someone else then, will you still remember our memories together? The time that we shared together was so short yet I’m glad we found ourselves in each other’s arms. I’ve not regret our love, dear Jin. Even if you can’t be with me anymore, I will always love you, and not love another. Good bye, Jin. Just remember that someone named Kamenashi Kazuya loved you.
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The door opened wide, Kame looked up to see his beloved sitting on the edge of his bed, nearest to the window who smiled upon his arrival.
“Jin.” That is all he managed to say, taking in the image in front of him, he wanted so much to hold him in his arms and so he did.
“Jin!!!” Kame cried onto his lover’s chest, hugging him fiercely for the very first time in these few months, he missed his touch and caring tender look so much, “Jin, I miss you. You have no idea how much I’ve missed you. I really miss you.” He sobbed continuously.
Don’t cry in front of me, Kame. You’re making me go weak as well. You managed to make me feel sadder than I already am. There were tears in his eyes as Jin took no hesitation to hold the younger one close to him, pulling him into a tight embrace, as he himself clings to his beloved for one last time.
No words needs to be said as they gazed lovingly into each other’s eyes, the love clearly expressed through their teary eyes as Jin made the next move, placing his lips onto the other, naturally turning it into a passionate and hot kiss.
Unfortunately it was their very last kiss.
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Both of them broke apart from the intimate kiss, gazing at each other intently, not once releasing the comfortable embrace, “Does this really have to stop? Our relationship … we could still make it work, Jin. We …” he stopped when Jin looked at him with a sad expression.
“Kame, you promised.” He whispered the words, “You promised that tonight will be our last memory. You promised.”
The younger one just stares at Jin blankly, his hopes of a possible reconciliation shattered, Kame thought maybe he could change his mind at the very last moment but still he could not. He would still say his good bye to Jin after all.
Tears once again cluttered in his brown eyes, giving Jin a very strange yet sweet smile, as he voiced out, “That’s right. I promised. I guess I’ve forgotten about the promise thing but don’t you worry, I’m a man of my words! Don’t worry, alright?” Kame embraced his lover tightly then, holding him as if never wanting to let go, “I promise I won’t bother you anymore after this, Jin.”
I promise.
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In a flash, the scene of the one memorable night turns into the beautiful vast of the sea, the night is slowly fading away, as the morning is catching up, Kamenashi Kazuya standing at the edge of a cliff, flashing out a smile, closing his eyes to feel the cool wind at dawn.
“I promised you that I will let you go, Jin. Didn't I?” he thought sadly.
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Author's Note: So that is chapter 9, finally! I've actually re-wrote this a few days ago. I've sent the original Chapter 9 to my beta-reader but I've not since received any reply and I kind of really miss writing this fic so much, knowing that I've left my readers waiting for so long. I'm really sorry. Why didn't I post the original Chapter 9 then? Coz I just lost my thumb drive that contains my precious Chapter 9 AND Chapter 10, I don't have any back-up copy. T________T Those two chapters are gone just like that, as so my other important datas. Sigh, I was so careless. Now I have to re-Write Chapter 10!~ Will do that soon. Hope you've enjoyed reading this update! Once again, sorry for making you wait!
Pairing: Akame
Genre: Angst and lots of drama as well.
Rating: PG 13
Summary: Reo's conversation with Jin when the latter told him about Kame's decision to 'give up' on their relationship. He could not believe the strong-willed Kame could easily give up just like that, Reo know it must have hurt so much to even say those words to his brother. Akame's last memory together, before they finally call all quits.
Disclaimer: Awwwww, character are really not mine. I'm so sad.
A\N: Really sorry for the long wait!~ Read below for my reason for not updating for, like almost to a month now? This chapter is being re-Written all over again. No beta-reader for this so I'm really sorry for any mistakes. Sigh~
| 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 |
Chapter 9 - A promise made
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Reo looked at his brother with a look of disbelief written in his eyes, he refused to take in the words that had just been said, he knew Jin is a man that tells no lie but still it is so hard to accept the fact that Kazuya-kun have given up on their one precious love, that is so unlike him, so different from the man that had his determination high up in his chest the other time they met.
Kazuya-kun is strong, is he? It might hurt so much to go through the pain but times like this, he is not the sort to give up, and he will not collapse till the very end. He will continue to strive on, bringing the last piece of their love, hope for it to mend with the many small pieces shattered, and scattered in several places. Then everything will be alright, like a scene changing to the past, moving on as if nothing had ever happened.
Eyes never tell lies, so that of Jin’s, with that look he flashed and the body movements of his, he could not have told a lie. Reo pretended not to have seen that look as he chose not to believe his brother though he knew it’s all but the truth.
“Onii-chan, you’re lying. Just a few days ago, Kazuya-kun was determined to get you back in his life so much that he won’t stop trying till his very last of exhaustion point. How could that change in just a split second?” Reo spluttered out his anger at his brother who just looked down on the floor, that image of his brother rises up his anger even more thus he closed the gap between them, grabbing the collar of Jin roughly, an action that he had never had done with his elder brother, this is his first being violent to his one and only brother.
Reo looked at him with so much anger, it seems like he was taking advantage of this situation since Jin could not move a muscle from waist down though that wasn’t the reason, for once Reo was letting his anger took control of him.
“Even if Kazuya-kun did told you all that, it must have hurt so much for him to make that decision! The pain, the exhaustion, those bittersweet memories that you’ve once shared is making him fall one step at a time! It hurts remembering, recalling to a memory that have a high possibility of it not happening again! It’s all because of you that he is hurting right now! Don’t you even realize that, onii-chan?” Reo voiced out, not once letting go of the firm hold he had on his brother.
Jin remained silent as he listens to his brother, allowing the younger man to vent his anger on him. He could have push Reo hard enough to make himself free of the hard grip but he did not, for deep inside he knew the truth, his baby brother has been hurting too amidst the mess that he have created. The emotions in Reo, he have to let them go, for once he wants to be the big brother that he could not be since the occurrence of the accident. He is always dependent on others but all he ever wanted is for someone to rely on him, as seen from this scene.
Reo stops, loosening the grip on his brother as he looked up at him with unshed tears, so much pain in his heart that was left unsaid, that was only for him to know, not allowing anyone else to enter his small world.
That same Reo he knew is slowly breaking right in front of him, softly whispering, tears threatening to fall any second as he struggles to speak.
“Why aren’t you doing anything? Not saying anything, not using your hands to do something, you’re allowed to hurt me in times like this, onii-chan!” He loosens the hold even more, tears spilling, choking out the words he have always wanted to say, “I want my brother back! I want the old Akanishi Jin who smiles, who shouts, who hit me on the head when I made him mad! I want him back! Give me back my brother! Give him back!!” Reo shouts, shaking his brother hysterically.
Somehow the conversation had turned from the topic of Jin’s relationship with Kame to their brotherly relationship that has disappeared too since the accident as their close relationship was affected as well.
“The Akanishi Jin I knew will never give up on any occasion despite how terrible the situation is. He will go after what is his, no matter how impossible it might seem. Therefore onii-chan, please don’t give up on your relationship. Please bring my brother back to me, to Kazuya-kun, to us. Bring him back. I beg you, onii-chan.” Reo pleads.
Jin could only give his younger brother a sad look, he have not played his part as an elder brother after all, he was clearly taken off guard when Reo suddenly spoke his inner feelings, he thought he would feel relieve letting him speak his mind but in the end he realized that he has inflicted pain to his brother, recalling those times he had given Reo the cold treatment when all the younger one ever wanted was to comfort his elder brother.
I’m truly sorry, Reo. To have to hurt you, in this condition I’m in, I end up hurting the ones I love. I’m hurting everyone I care about in this whole World, even Yamapi. The accident happened, I can’t pretend as if nothing had happened. That is why we could not return back to the past, Reo. Things can never be the same again.
“I’m afraid that Akanishi Jin died in me the moment the accident happened, Reo. He can never return in this current condition I am in. He is gone, Reo. That is why you have to accept your brother as I am right now.” Jin tried to make out a small smile as an assurance but he eventually failed, results him in biting his lip nervously.
“I’m not following my heart. I’m doing what I think is for the best. That is why … tonight will be the last memory for Kame and me. Our one last memory till our story closes.” Jin closes his eyes sadly.
Reo gave his brother a thoughtful look, he understands yet a part of him wants more explanation than he had been given. He wasn’t trying to get his brother’s affection when he broke down in front of him. All he ever wanted was to have the cheerful, high spirited Akanishi Jin back in their family. He was hopeful of the high possibility in getting back the cheerful side to his brother if he talked to him but in the end, as long as his elder brother is still paralyzed, that brother of him will be buried deep inside him.
He nods his head, releasing the hold on his elder brother completely and without a word, he made his way to the stairs, walking up to his bedroom, stopping when he heard a faint shout, his brother calling up to him, his face in worry.
“I still don’t like the decision that you’ve made but because you’re my brother, I will support you. That’s all I can do for you, even as your younger brother, I’m not capable of making you happy. That is why I will cheer you from a distance, and keep on supporting you.” Reo bit his lip, “Make well with the last memory you will create with Kazuya-kun. Good night, onii-chan.” With that being said, Reo continued climbing up the steps to his bedroom.
“Good night, Reo.” In the lonely night, Jin whispered back, looking at his brother’s retreating form, a small thud signaling the end of their emotional conversation.
One last memory, he thought, waiting patiently in the dark for his beloved to come, and then they will create one last memorable memory to be remembered.
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Kame put his pen down, reading the content once again before folding the piece of paper into three, placing it into the white envelope nicely. The letter remained untouched for a short moment as he stares onto it, glancing at the pen as he takes the small object and scribbles something on the front of the envelope.
To Nakamaru
The decision is made. There is no time for any changes to it. Tonight will be their very last memory together and his very last.
Slowly turning the door knob, careful not to make any sound, Kame tip-toed into the guest room where his friend is sleeping soundly on the comfy king size bed, he looks so peaceful lying in a position like that, as noted by Kame, looking over his sleepy friend.
You’re a great brother, Nakamaru. You treat me like one and you take good care of me during the critical moments. Thank you for being there when I need someone by my side. I will miss you.
He thought sadly, placing the letter on the dressing table, taking a last glance at his friend before making a move, walking out of the bedroom, slowly closing the door after him.
I’m sorry I have to disappoint you.
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The door bell rings as the clock strikes 12. Jin stares at the door blankly for one second, taking a deep breathe he placed his hands on his wheelchair, about to push it forward when he heard footsteps coming from the stairs.
He turned to see Reo walking towards him, “Don’t worry about the door. I’ll get it. Just wait for him in your bedroom, onii-chan.” He pats his brother’s shoulder, his eyes watching his every movement intently till he is gone from his sight and into the bedroom on the ground level.
Why must two souls, two hearts beating for each other have to part like this? So much love, so much pain causing them to break apart. Reo thought for a minute, heaving out a small sigh of sadness as he continued on the steps to the entrance door, opening it without any hesitation, a broken looking Kamenashi Kazuya came into view.
Indeed Kame looks so fragile, his arms hugging to his chest in cold even though he had his jacket on, it’s late at night furthermore it’s the winter season in Kyoto, the wind is amazingly cold causing the smaller one to shiver tremendously.
“Kazuya-kun, come on in. It’s so cold outside.” Reo let the other one in, turning to face the fragile man in front of him soon after, “Onii-chan is waiting for you in his bedroom.” He said, pointing to a room not far from them, seeing the small nod from the latter, Reo continued on, “I’ll leave you two alone. Excuse me.” With that, he bowed and made his way back to his own bedroom on the second floor.
Meanwhile Kame stood still, staring at the closed door and waited for a moment before slowly walking the remaining distance to his beloved’s bedroom, he was just a few meters apart from him now, everything seems so near. Slowly and gracefully, he turns the door knob to the room.
Jin, this will be our last memory. Will you remember me years in the future? Even if you’ve found someone else then, will you still remember our memories together? The time that we shared together was so short yet I’m glad we found ourselves in each other’s arms. I’ve not regret our love, dear Jin. Even if you can’t be with me anymore, I will always love you, and not love another. Good bye, Jin. Just remember that someone named Kamenashi Kazuya loved you.
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The door opened wide, Kame looked up to see his beloved sitting on the edge of his bed, nearest to the window who smiled upon his arrival.
“Jin.” That is all he managed to say, taking in the image in front of him, he wanted so much to hold him in his arms and so he did.
“Jin!!!” Kame cried onto his lover’s chest, hugging him fiercely for the very first time in these few months, he missed his touch and caring tender look so much, “Jin, I miss you. You have no idea how much I’ve missed you. I really miss you.” He sobbed continuously.
Don’t cry in front of me, Kame. You’re making me go weak as well. You managed to make me feel sadder than I already am. There were tears in his eyes as Jin took no hesitation to hold the younger one close to him, pulling him into a tight embrace, as he himself clings to his beloved for one last time.
No words needs to be said as they gazed lovingly into each other’s eyes, the love clearly expressed through their teary eyes as Jin made the next move, placing his lips onto the other, naturally turning it into a passionate and hot kiss.
Unfortunately it was their very last kiss.
-------- ` --------
Both of them broke apart from the intimate kiss, gazing at each other intently, not once releasing the comfortable embrace, “Does this really have to stop? Our relationship … we could still make it work, Jin. We …” he stopped when Jin looked at him with a sad expression.
“Kame, you promised.” He whispered the words, “You promised that tonight will be our last memory. You promised.”
The younger one just stares at Jin blankly, his hopes of a possible reconciliation shattered, Kame thought maybe he could change his mind at the very last moment but still he could not. He would still say his good bye to Jin after all.
Tears once again cluttered in his brown eyes, giving Jin a very strange yet sweet smile, as he voiced out, “That’s right. I promised. I guess I’ve forgotten about the promise thing but don’t you worry, I’m a man of my words! Don’t worry, alright?” Kame embraced his lover tightly then, holding him as if never wanting to let go, “I promise I won’t bother you anymore after this, Jin.”
I promise.
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In a flash, the scene of the one memorable night turns into the beautiful vast of the sea, the night is slowly fading away, as the morning is catching up, Kamenashi Kazuya standing at the edge of a cliff, flashing out a smile, closing his eyes to feel the cool wind at dawn.
“I promised you that I will let you go, Jin. Didn't I?” he thought sadly.
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Author's Note: So that is chapter 9, finally! I've actually re-wrote this a few days ago. I've sent the original Chapter 9 to my beta-reader but I've not since received any reply and I kind of really miss writing this fic so much, knowing that I've left my readers waiting for so long. I'm really sorry. Why didn't I post the original Chapter 9 then? Coz I just lost my thumb drive that contains my precious Chapter 9 AND Chapter 10, I don't have any back-up copy. T________T Those two chapters are gone just like that, as so my other important datas. Sigh, I was so careless. Now I have to re-Write Chapter 10!~ Will do that soon. Hope you've enjoyed reading this update! Once again, sorry for making you wait!