this is odd. im not sure what to think haha.

so im back with john and we are trying to work things out and i have faith we will ( Read more... )

its funny how your voice pressed to my ear can feel like home more then any arm ive ever had around me. oh how ive missed you. and its good to be walkin home.

back with john. 5 months and ill be a massage therapist.
6 months and ill be driving a uhaul to california to be with him.
im scared and happy and i think my chest is going to plode. in or ex im not sure, just plode. this is it. my puzzle piece.

shame on you for making me feel this way
shame on me for loving you.
its a terrible feeling to feel foolish for loving.
my insides are starting to strike i cant eat without feeling sick.
i can sleep without terrible nightmares
and im dizzy after half a beer.
i dont deserve this.

so i thought i lost my wallet yesterday in which i had all my money so i cried alot then found it then called my mom and cried some more. i havent felt this lonely scince i dont know when. i miss my family, i miss my boyfriend, i miss friends and family get togethers, and kissing in the middle of the night when i wake up every 30 min, and familiar ( Read more... )

the first time i heard your voice my heart cocognized you as already part of it.

im in love and its scary and wonderful and my chest aches.
im in love and he loves me too and im puzzled but not going to argue
im in love with a wonderful boy who makes me smile and i cant stop think about him and missing him.
yeah its pretty nice.

john and i have been talking about moving in together after this year (when my lease with erica is up) and also doing it in france. im excited and nervous and i love him so much. i think it would be good for both of us to challenge ourselves ( Read more... )

i didnt think i could find love like this. love that sustains thousands of miles. love that makes your chest ache so hard you smile with your whole self. love thats real and true and now and to be and i love him.