this week has been amazing and im already on the edge of tears thinking that i only have two nights and one full day left with john. finding someone thats gets you and that you get is hard and i feel so comfortable with him its incredible. my chest gets tight and i cant stop smiling, breathing becomes easier and things just make sense. we went to ( Read more... )

im in cali and i love it. i spend my morning and some of the afternooon wandering and treating myself to coffee and lunch out while john is at work then when he gets back we go get an early dinner and he shows me around yesterday we went to the santa monica pier and ate at a place on the very end and i got a fortune from the zoltar machine in the ( Read more... )

my car got broken into in the middle of my 12 hour work day, thats a hell of a lunch break. feeling low lately and this was the icing on the cake. hopefuly the move will be a pick me up.

sometimes i think im insane, whie other girl my age want nothiing but casual dating to lead to a few free meals and sex and an eventual melodramatic breakup im looking for someone who will be a good father, who i feel comfortable enough to call my best friend and partner. someone to share my life with, good and bad and i really hope im right in ( Read more... )

i had become so afraid to love anyone and had alomst forgotten that feeling in my stomache... and then i heard your voice and remembered how good it feels to give yourself away.

some nights when i know youre getting off later then usual i try to stay awake so as not to answer the phone half asleep but try as i might time change does exist and i somewhat recall those nights, you laughing at my raspy little voice yawning into a reciever. and im not so sure you know how much you make me ache. and im not so sure what songs to ( Read more... )

her bones dont quite fit together anymore. healed backwards and bent. and sometimes she trips bc her limbs dont move as she meant. scolding her own body and breath for every missed step that sent her hands and knees to the ground so often she now knows the sound of her own blood moving to reach the surface where concrete met skin. and proved it ( Read more... )

what a lovely way to burn.

saw in the land of women last night. it was adorable. even though it doesnt quite advertise the real story line ( Read more... )

driving home at 5 in the mroning listening to david sedairis ( Read more... )