My dad has always told me to "live in the now", and I'm really trying to, but it's hard these past few days. I've been really sad lately, and it's because of some things that happened a few weeks ago. I guess it's also because of the social situation I'm in right now. I don't know, it's so hard to stand by and watch someone you really like have ( Read more... )

Well, I haven't updated in 8,953 billion years, so I thought it was time to write a little about what's going on. Lately I've been feeling really envious of other people's lives. I mean, I know I have a good life and everything, it's just that sometimes I really wish I could have more friends of be more well- liked. I know shouldn't care about what ( Read more... )

Yeah, it's Friday, which means this school week is finally over. I think it was the longest week ever. I wasn't bad or anything, just too long. Three day weekend. I have absolutely no plans whatsoever. I think I'm babysitting tonight. And there's some party tomorrow, I really can't decide wether I want to go. There have been so many parties lately ( Read more... )

I haven't really had much to say in my last few updates... I guess I haven't felt like updating lately. This weekend was pretty cool, though. I still feel really apathetic towards my school work. I get good grades, I just don't care like I used to. Oh well. I think I might delete my account, I can't write half the stuff that goes on in here anyway.

School was really hard today - I begged my mom to let me stay home again, but she made me go, which was good I guess. I got to first mod a little late and then fell asleep. I am so exhausted, emotionally and physically. It wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't constantly being reminded of what happened. You know, this sounds so cheesy, and I know I'm ( Read more... )

I really cannot fathom how someone could live with themselves knowing that they're making someone this hurt and upset and sad and not giving a shit. Wow. I really set myself up for this. I thought it would be different this time, I mean how could you possibly do this to me again? Honestly, how do you live with yourself? Don't lead me on and tell ( Read more... )

This weekend can suck it. Seriously. I spent yesterday playing tennis (I hadn't played in 3 months, so that was delightful). And then I went to the mall with my mom in hopes of getting lots of new clothes and shit. I ended up getting a tank top. Balls. And then I was supposed to do something with some friends but never heard from them.. love when ( Read more... )

I guess stuff is pretty good right now. I feel really odd today. I'm just feeling really apathetic towards everything. And I'm feeling really lethargic... I kind of just want to stay home and watch movies and stay in my pj's. I have a real feeling of unprovoked sadness, I have no idea where it came from. I've been thinking about a lot of stuff ( Read more... )

This weekend kicked so much ass :) On Friday I went to see Brokeback Mountain with Jordan -- it was so good! And then we met Morgan, Aaron, and Will and just drove around and listened to music. Andddd then Saturday I "hung out" with Jordan, Mitch, Anna Taft, Anna Kimmey, Jon, and John Potter :) Let me just say, Mcdonald's have never tasted so good ( Read more... )

Well, I've been having a lot easier time as far as school is concerned, seeing as how I have no more honors science. I like my schedule pretty well, but I don't really like the order of the classes. Oh well, I have guitar 1 which means I can take a nap everyday if I want to. As far as things with my parents... well, they could be better. They gave ( Read more... )