i got held up at gun point at work becuz we were getting robbed.and the robber held the gun at me the whole time. i dunno how to feel becuz i feel scared but i dont want ppl to know about that but i feel like ppl think im weak. i dunno.... im scared.....
im also getting depressed again...and i cant help it like i dunno why i am...it sucks..

i got held up at gun point at work becuz we were getting robbed.and the robber held the gun at me the whole time. i dunno how to feel becuz i feel scared but i dont want ppl to know about that but i feel like ppl think im weak. i dunno.... im scared.....
im also getting depressed again...and i cant help it like i dunno why i am...it sucks..

why is it that i fall for the girls that are just going to fuck with my head and break my heart? i swear she tells me she has so many feelings for me and then play games with my head and fuckin up and gets a god damn boyfriend that cant love her possibly as much as i do? i fuckin cant wait till i find a girl that can just be her self and not care ( Read more... )

sandra....god i dont know why i screwed that up. but that girl reminds me oh so much of ...well you know who and tonight she laying on me and it set feelings off and we got into a fight. god im so stupid. wtf? why did i have to think of her? geez now fuckin friends are mad at me. and i cant help it. for some reason i keep thinking about her like ( Read more... )

i dont know whats the matter with me. jacy's right. drinking isnt me. im so much more better than that. but i have this feeling i need to forget. i dont want to feel like it anymore. its gets my pain and feelings away. i love her and i cant get her out of my head. why wont it go away? i found someone who is good. but its not the same and then again ( Read more... )

so fuck i was wrong. she is like her! why the fuck do all the girls i date or start to date fricken act normal and really fun and great but then fricken get all emo and fricken psycho on me? and then ask me to forget about them?! it fuckin pisses me off!i hate the high school drama and relationships becuz their fuckin gay! why do i have to fricken ( Read more... )

so yea me and nikki (nikita) are together now and its cool. she's really energetic. lol but its cool. wont make me like her any less. but yea so things are ok. but some of my old friends that i havent talked to seem like their sad now. stuffs going on with them and i dunno what to do. i miss alot of ppl i havent seen in so long. PPL OUT THERE!! yea ( Read more... )

shes the greatest but shes not you. how can you hate someone so much yet love them and miss them with all your heart? i miss the fact that i cant have what i had before. i just dunno my self any more. and becuz of you i play everything safe so i dont get hurt. i feel like crying but thats weak and below me. these feelings are driving me crazy becuz ( Read more... )

so everything feels weird. its like im driving blind. i dont like that feeling. its like a fear and discomfort ( Read more... )

so i went to bsb and im not ashamed of it. i had the best time of my life feeling something so powerfull like music run through me like that. i danced i sang at the top of my lungs and i even started to cry becuz of the memories coming back to me that didnt make me to happy. but i had a blast. im sick and my voice is completely gone. my co-workers ( Read more... )