ugh! getting ready for work and trying to update!
well, yesterday was my first day and I actually think I'm really going to like it there!
they're like a big family.
They play games, have contests, partys and they even have pin ball games in the cafeteria!!!
I swear... It kinda feels like a highschool or college!
they even have showers and a locker ( Read more... )

 ehh.... my pinky is really bothering me so I'm gonna make this quick.
But today was great... I went to the shower and she's still not having bad enough contractions to go in the hospital. It was a lot of fun and she is so beautiful!!! I can't wait to see him! I guess they spell his name Connor, I thought it was -er... but I guess you can spell it ( Read more... )

So yesterday was kool.
I got to go see the band for 10 minutes...
(more than enough for me) 
and Michael..... God I miss him...
I hugged him and told him I loved him...
he said I love you too...
and I told him to have fun at Chads camp, but to be careful.
I saw my cousin Jimmy today and he said him and Erin were going...
so I feel a little better about it.

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I've been talking to my mom a lot about me and Mike... We've both came to the conclusion that the band is making him into what he's become. He wants to be so much like Chad that he's slowly becoming him. It's really sad, he could have chosen a better role model... :x
I hope that in the next couple months he realizes that he's 19 and needs to start ( Read more... )

Not much to say...
Getting my cat fixed next week.
Mike still hasn't called.
My dad's back from camp.
And...
I'm going to the movies with Nick, Lance, Cody and the twins this Friday.
I've pretty much already written it all down in my journal,
so I don't really want to write it again.
But I'm sure I'll have something to say later or tomorrow.
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So I'm doing okay. I decided not to call Mike for a week... and so far it's been two days of not talking to him. It hurts a little... mostly when I wake up... but then it gets better throughout the day. I'm eating more now, but I lost 6 pounds since we broke up.
I feel a little better being on my own and have also realized it can never be the same ( Read more... )

Just break my heart,
and leave...
That's all I ever wanted...

 So... I went to the Deadseason concert last night and it was good.
I would have had more fun if Mike hadn't gotten me in such a bad mood.
I told him that if he wants to talk to me or see me HE needs to call.
Cause I never know what mood hes gonna be in anymore and I'm tired of it.

He's also been lying to me for the past 5 or so months...
he was smoking ( Read more... )

 I got the job ;]
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Today was amazing ;]
I'm not going into detail...
just that we talked and I understand him a little better.
We're going to get together again sometime soon.
I can't wait. ;]