grrRRRrr

[harpoon_me]

I WANT TO FUCKING CUT.
and i don't have a knife, dammit. i have a couple of pushpins, a stapler and some paperclips, that's IT. i want to slash my wrist and watch the blood. i don't particularly want to die, although it's certainly not the worst thing that could happen. but i need blood. i miss the scent, the taste of it. shit, i don't know what to

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[tifa_x]

o_o;

Being that size isnt the worst thing in the world, you know. There are people a lot heavier than you. 400, 600, and so on kind of pounds. And some of the time, people that heavy LOVE themselves. I have a friend who is heavy(400lbs, maybe more, and she loves it. She doesnt want to lose weight, she's happy in the skin she's in.) Sometimes when we go out, people will stare really hard at her. But you know what? At the end of the day, that doesn't matter. What matters is what you have on the inside, not out. (I know, that sounded kinda corny)

But Im not here to tell you what to do, or how to live your life. Im just saying that...we're not perfect.

[harpoon_me]

i know you're right, i know i should feel better about myself..... but i don't. and i don't know any other way to get there.

[renegadebabe25]

I remember being where you're at. Hating myself, just wanting to see the blood and feel the burn but that's the easy way out. There's always alternatives and to be honest, the weight doesn't matter so long as you learn to like yourself.

I'm sure you're beautiful babe ; )
why can't you see it?

[harpoon_me]

i know it's the easy way out.... i've "quit" 4 times, and i've gone for almost a year now. i appreciate the support tho :) and i know you're right, i just... can't see it for myself.

[renegadebabe25]

its what i'm here for. i know what you mean, hope you get there though, i'm sure things will let up eventually.

[simpler_times]

Hi you dont know me and i found your journal randomly but i feel the same way. I feel like a joke being so big i want to just cut it all off to be done with it all. I hate feeling the way i am so fat and ugly. Your not alone

[harpoon_me]

hi :) thanks, ugh i hate it...