Children? Living together? Thinking for the future? So many things swirling in my head right now

I'm engaged now.. at a loss of words for this

I know no one reads this, but ah well. I've been with my boyfriend for almost 9 months now. We get along very well for the most part, have a lot in common- but for some reason right now I feel very alone. Maybe it's because he's out partying.. I'm not sure. I feel all the stress from having trouble with finances, and I always feel like I have the ( Read more... )

The more and more jobs that call him, the more and more I feel inadequate and harbor resentment. I know it's wrong, but I can't help feeling this way- I'm trying not to, but it's still so painful.

Lots of things have happened this weekend. A lot of firsts. Went to my first band concert, a German band called Rammstein - to which took over 10 hours plus of driving. It was incredibly hot, in the hundreds, but it was my first road trip since the Vegas trip I went on with my friends. There were a lot of pyrotechnics and it was amazing, just wish ( Read more... )

I'm becoming more accustomed to having a boyfriend, but my quirks stand out from his niceness. I have met his mom and family- his two sisters and brother(though not his dad) and I enjoy their company very much. I know I'm no angel, but I want to be a good girlfriend to him, and I want to be a good person as well. I am starting to understand just ( Read more... )

ever.

Right now I'm sort of at a cross road in my life. I have a boyfriend now, I finally forced myself to move on and keep going- but for some reason am having a good deal of self doubt. I don't know for sure if I am 'in love' love yet- I am trying to be. I care enough to love that person, but things have happened so fast. From disappointments, to a new ( Read more... )

I just can't get out of my mind no matter how much I try and need to. Ah the hurts of the old days. On a different note I wonder what D is up to

Trying to keep the cat in the bag until tomorrow so my parents don't have time to flip out. Anyways wedding reception and bachelorette party will be awesome. Don't have any money to go about spending so this will be tough, but some R&R at a hotel with an awesome pool and stuff to do will be a great get away.