Well that guy just wants to be friends. SO. MOVING ON. Break out the blood dice and let's gamble! Since being careful so hasn't worked at all.

but I still think.... I caught you looking even if it was just for a moment.

and it back fired. I am so totally mad at myself. I scared him away. I wanted to cry the whole way home, but instead I just kept driving.......and driving........ and driving.........what am I going to do about this, did I fail? Did I ruin the possibility. Am I only capable of going out with someone when inebriated (where they like me too ( Read more... )

Even with the previous relationship, I don't think I ever questioned myself as much as this. There's nothing to fear, I mean we agreed on no more awkwardness. School is coming up so I'm wondering how to mount this next wild horse. Will the business be a detriment, benefit, what will long distance do? I don't mind going to visit really (it gives me ( Read more... )

at the issue, but I have things to do today.

On a separate matter, I am worried about the things I said the other day- I hope we still get together for the movie. Did I screw things up already? hmm......

This kind of bothers me, my fortune for today that is, I mean it worries me actually
"There is yet time enough for you to take a different path."
One shouldn't read too much into these things, but am I on the wrong path? Like I said.. it worries me....

Raging Inferno.. Inferno....inferno...inferno...inferno!!!!!!!!! Diviiiiiiiiiiiiiide and Conquuuuuueeeeeeer!!!!!!

Get in my way and I'll kick some ass!!! So you better not steal my hopeful victories, or it will be your hide next.

can't sleep again. *sigh* how many nights will this be?

This was a poem I had written for a film class, but really it was addressed to my (current) ex. It saddens me to read, but there is nothing I can do about it, when it is he who cannot forgive.

If You Mean It

si usted desea saber
if you wish to know

escuche
listen

si usted lo significa
if you mean it

Yo puedo creerlo
I will believe you

pero solamente
but ( Read more... )

are slightly alleviated. He was on aim today so I talked to him a little bit, and yeah he was visiting family- I knew that but still- you take nervousness and put it to female hormones (ugh I hate that), and it makes one scared. He says he'll talk to me soon about it. I'm probably am the person that feels more, but I suppose that is the type of ( Read more... )