So everyone wants to give up ( Read more... )

I'm really confused as far as things go with me and Josh. On every level. I know he told me he never wanted to be with me again, but some of the things he has said to me really don't make any sense. But I really don't want to say anything to him about it because I don't want to upset him. And I was talking Alex about this whole ordeal because I'm ( Read more... )

i seriously think about it now,
no one really gives a fuck about me.

i miss you
i love you
i need you

Eh ( Read more... )

( survey )

( Read more... )

Ehhh today...Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and felt really sick. I woke up today around 10:30 because I couldn't sleep anymore. I tried working on my essay and got really frustrated so then I slept until like 2:30. Today my dad was yelling at me because I've lost too much weight. I just feel so tired.

I didn't have an opportunity to write in here last night, so here is about yesterday. Yesterday I woke up around normal school time and waited in front of the t.v to see if school was going to be closed, or if I had to call in. School was indeed closed, for the second time this week. Since I was home from school, and my dad was home too, my dad ( Read more... )

Today wasn't that bad of a day.
I'm really starting to miss Josh though. Honestly, I miss more of him than the memories I've had. I love this man so much.
I love this man.
Anything that anything is worth working for.

Why am I such a fuck up?