it hasn't even been 24 hours and i'm not sure if i can do this. really really unsure. i'm scared. and i dont know what to think. work is mad at me for going on vacation next week but i'm not cancelling just cause we lost nick. not my fault. too bad. i'm so angry right now, but for no reason. i feel like this day is just going to drag by. i dont ( Read more... )

isn't it horrifying how one second can change your life? what you were once so sure of, now you're not

This here is my fall 2006 college schedule:
monday:
math 040- 8-9:30

intro to world religions- 10-11:30

principles of child pyschology- 12-130

wednesday:
math 040- 8-9:30

intro to world religions- 10-11:30

principles of child pyschology- 12-1:30

friday:
english 112- 9:30-12:30

there you have it. i'll probably be working at zumiez whenever i'm not in school ( Read more... )

we belong together. we always have. we always will. i'm his and he's mine. i feel like the only place that i can feel completely comfortable in is that spot where my back hits his chest and my head rests on his shoulder. i'm in way over my head. i know where we're headed. in one of two directions. and i dont know which one we'll end up at. but i ( Read more... )

sara is moving to hotlanta tomorrow. movers are coming today. we had her going away party last night. BBQ and then bowling. all was well til the last 5 minutes when it sunk in that this was the last time i was going to be seeing her for awhile. i lost the game, i was the first to cry. before we said goodbye we just hugged for a couple minutes and ( Read more... )

dont get mad at me! it's YOUR fault that this happened! not mine, your choice, your decision,your lack of whatever it was. stop making me cry over your actions. stop blaming me for your mistakes. stop always turning it around. i wish i didn't love you so much cause what hurts more than you saying those things to me and acting the way you do, is ( Read more... )

i am starting to think of all i missed out on. senior week. graduation. close, tight knit friendships with girls. i wonder what my life would have been like had i attended real school. had my life been more along the lines of what everyone elses was like, i wonder what it would have been like. what if my mom wasn't in a wheelchair? what if my back ( Read more... )

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oh man....you don't get it. i'm bored. my life is ruled by a.) zumiez b.) gary and c.) family. so all in all i have no control over anything.

if you don't stop spreading rumors about me, we're gonna have a huge problem. so, please KNOCK IT THE FUCK OFF. thanks

love,
marianne