i am in north carolina. i love my family, but i miss my pack, and my girlfriend.

well this is strange i know that i have been all kinda emo latly but now i feel alot better. i toke acouple of days and i got propsitioned for the realationship. it's strange and came out of left field. i'm still kinda spun around the whole thing but it's all good. sorry about the random emo.

thanks for reading this far

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