Wow! I just bought my first car, an '82 volvo wagon for $500! My first car @ 35!?! But hey, @ least I've now got soumthing else to such the crumbs out of my wallet! I don't even know this guy & he's giving me the car /w $300 down /w the final payment to follow @ soum point. What a trusting (or desperate) individual! How amazing to find either @ ( Read more... )

had been a lengthy one, yet I'm back & do I EVER have a shiteload of crap to divulge! Though, be patient as I'm STILL all over the place.

THEN SOUM.

my life has found itself in quite an uproar due to a solitary decision that i made. i won't get deeply into here as i gather that there are those about these spaces who've already formed their opinions. already formed their contempt prior to investigation without a shred of knowledge over who i am & the reasonings behind my actions; i broke from my ( Read more... )

to all those whom i've missed with incredible longings, yet have lost contact with: i love ewes & i need ewes. i am here, when i have been @ www.myspace.com/theblacksheepreunion. you can find me there when all else has been said. i've found that the friendships i've created here cannot be compared to THAT space, though it = interesting as well ( Read more... )

there's no further news ov my first love's condition. @ the very least I've not been let in on any said change(s). still, i find my heart corrding in anger /w my eyes continuing to remain dry. i've done all that i can to facilitate becouming intouch w/ that which evades me: that wanton sadness that let's me know that i still love & lie /w her. last ( Read more... )

as a bone ov inspiration ( Read more... )

my heart. my heart is sorrow. the mother ov my son hung herself @ 2300 hrs last night. her present life partner found her @ 0200 hrs this morning. she was defiantly still clinging to this mortal coil; she never wanted to die. she needed release from a great many anguishes accumulated over the past seveal years since i moved out west to gain an ( Read more... )

having found myself in one ov those presently odd moods where i feel the touch ov G-odd on my brow, edging me on, to gather up my instruments: electric acoustic, violin, trumpet, & this massive old organ I acquired for $5 from a discount store. Perhaps i can make something out ov thier placement in my life. Seeing that my present ability to be ( Read more... )

some times i haven't the faintest idea where all ov these longings, lossings, lovings, learnings lead. i am pressed by this WILL to simply place one foot ahead ov the other, asking as few questions posible (is there always a need to know?). still i shudder & clasp hands, for are these days any different than yours? why the need to know? more the ( Read more... )