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such = bizzare
& why = it that - regardless of my near fanatacism - I only learn A FULL YEAR SPENT that Jhonn Balance had died on the 14th of November 2004? I feel so so ignorant. Perhaps it = only now that I'm able to "deal with this"? For the past three days I felt only the hollow regarding this issue; this evening, having found a "death image" of Geoff that I ( Read more... ) -
an image ov (im)perfection?
as Midnight (the creature that eye cat-sit) gnaws on my thumb eye bring myself to commit to adding a photo of meyeself here. Eye was hesitant in doing this, as I'd prefer remaining as anonymous as possible so that if I'm to crash & burn - I've had three "friends" eye've met herein die to date - it'll make it a little easier for you to mourn, and so ( Read more... ) -
& so as well today: eye shall die a little death for Jhon
for those who've been somewhat in the dark, Wednesday will mark the year+month anniversary of mr. balance's fade-out...
forever with you, Jhon...
& sinning-surely,
devon
93/23/93
MUSIC: Black Light District: 'A Thousand Lights In A Darkened Room' -
paging doctor incompetate asshole. paging incompetant doctor asshole...
and if they're NOT incompetant, they're definitely putzes! dicks!
so, i was admitted to the hospital for two days while they medicated me & kept watch. the only reason why i was admitted @ all was because the doctor wouldn't trust me to send me home with heavy narcotics! prick.
gotta go for now, but will update this as soon as i can.
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THEE REIGN
is begining to lift. just like life: steal my day, leaving me with the night to come back to some semblence ov life ( Read more... ) -
SOME GARDENS
would surely rot if they had me to tend to them. such is the sory state of my own. no. i didn't manage to get around to actually doing any of that weeding; it's too fucking hot out & i'm too fucking depressed ( Read more... ) -
HIDDEN AMONGST THE THIEVES
somebody swiped my joy ( Read more... ) -
WELL - INGS & HAPLESS CIRCUM - STANCES
I really wish that i knew what was going on so that i could turn it off, or down just a tad. oh, please g-odd! what the fuck does it matter, this consistant foil. let me tell you this : having my doctor abruptly discontinue a hefty daily dose of morphine is NOT-I REPEAT NOT- THE WAY TO GO!!! f*ing goof face. if he was a superhero his cape would say ( Read more... ) -
Happy Days Are Here Today
wild. i rarely wake up feeling that i can take on the world anymore, but today = the day where i feel just that. and it's not due to the coffee, i swear. i deserve to feel this way more often than not. i'm not saying that sufferance should be avoided @ all expenses for how would i know when i'm having these "good" days. the only sensation that ( Read more... )