What words do I have to encase the incredible journey of the last ten years? Many. And few, just the same. It has become obvious to me in my aging that I was always who I was going to be underneath the ever hardening shell of the years, that glitxy grimy teenager who started this journal has never and will never fade into oblivion. She's still in ( Read more... )

Assemblage 23-Alive

Through the iridescent rain
In this heavy atmosphere
Nothing makes a sound
But the beating of my heart

Broken down and torn to shreds
On the verge of madness
Here comes that old familiar pain
Like a long lost friend’s return

I never felt so
I never felt so
Alive
Alive

Waves of doubt wash over me
A sighing ocean of black
Deep and steady, dark ( Read more... )

It is so so strange the things that someone can take for granted without realizing. I feel like I wasted so many years putting myself down over and over again and now simple things like watching 'The Parent Trap' makes me feel good about myself...Even if it is the shitty Lohan version.Maybe it is the duloxetine talking or maybe it is just growing ( Read more... )

Life has changed so dramatically,in ways I never even imagined that were possible for someone like myself...I read things I wrote ages ago and the nostalgia is far too much for me to deal with. In a way I am lucky and glad to have these memories written out and catalogued but in a way I doubt I will be going back to read anything as it ( Read more... )

Perception. The one true variable that separates us all,the link that has rusted and threatens to break the chain. Often the way we perceive our own reality,the manner in which we include others into our reality is what makes us who we are. Or who we seem to be. Light penetrating the dirty window into our souls revealing ,crumpled in the ( Read more... )

I...cant believe I still have a livejournal and remember my password. Fantastic.

I am thankful for things that are few and far between. I have learned from those that I have loved that I was thankful for all of the wrong reasons, and that personality can be paper thin ( Read more... )

It has become evident to me whether I can fathom it or not.

And now  have to make sure that the word is clear and brought forth  in a manner that you will understand.

The Vessel is pushed from the bank. it is loaded and his mission is certian. He does such things to make the world a better place. It is easier to understand to him now that he has been ( Read more... )

The day I felt for the first time what it was like to be 
an angsty teenager that hits inanimate objects and dislocates fingers.
HOORAH.
Laugh-cry because it hurt but was the most hillarious thing to witness.

And drive home left handed
only to introduce a brand new bouncing hospital bill.

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My uncle and his ten roosters are fixing my truck.

I ( Read more... )

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