its coming. three weeks away. it will be four years. four years ago. most of us were still 18.  i was away. you were home. i read the letter tonight. im seeing the half smile in my head. the 'yeas' comin out. pig class. the loudvoices. you defended me. you spoke the truth to me. i never forgot that. i cried out. you answered. you didnt no why. Now ( Read more... )

i think im going to write more. whether private or public. im just going to do it.

i caught up with stacy tonight and i realized how much i missed her. like genuinely missed her. Its funny, with so many people coming and going in my life, there are definately constant ones, that i know will always be around.

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how much they make my life better


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I like the way you make me feel special, when ever i see you during the day. how you non chalantly throw in how youd like to see me later. How you call me 'your favorite' and say the things that normally shouldnt come out of your mouth.

i think that its different, then it was. you got angry w/me, but i was being harmless. since then, it made me ( Read more... )

....but it didnt turn out too badly. as i hopped on the 9:24 this morning.. i thought, this isnt too bad. i could get used to goin into work at 11am. I guess the whole shooting late last night, and talking on the phone till who knows what time, caught up with me. I definately did not make my anticipated 8:28 train, or the 9:01 either.
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.he left me a single lily today, because i mentioned that i liked the way they looked last night.

Things I am thankful for...

my family. friends. everyone i care about, being healthy. hope. the future. the present. sunsets. sunrises after staying up all night. conversations about life with Tim. Laughing till my stomach aches with alan about nothing. zoning out. Lauren (6) knowing everything im thinking or about to say. Tracy and Annie to my ( Read more... )

This has been my life for the past couple of months....


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Its a beautiful sunday.. i have a lot to say, but for now i will make it short and sweet.

it was great to see the guys last night and talk about the past.

I think i needed a throwback night with post friends.

they make me remember how lucky i was to be able to join the circle while i did.

more later on.

My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst; and then I remember to relax and stop trying to hold onto it. Then it flows through me like rain, and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.

American Beauty