Its ok,,I hope ( Read more... )

The transition from florida back here has been pretty overwhelming. I didn' t realize how much i changed while at treatment , but as while being here i realized how drastically i changed. I feel as though that nothing here as changed but the seasons. When i left it wasn't as cold, now its bitter with snow and ice everywhere. Things that use to ( Read more... )

I just got out of a 28 day stay at The Renfrew Center in Florida. I can actually finally admit i am happy being the person i am. I love my self and i am finally am able to deal with the real life situations going on. I been fighting the voice ED, and i will be fighting for a long time to come. I read over this live journal and i gringed reading it ( Read more... )

i dont know what i need nemore. I did decide to go back into treatment wen skool ends this semester. I was recomnded to in patient treatment. Yesterday i was so ready to go, but today im not to sure if i need it nemore. God damnit i dont know nemore. My binging is horrible, thank god im purging though, Im lucky im not getting so bad where im not ( Read more... )

Yah things i guess been going welll..I dunoo,,im binging and purging everday,once a day. I have not been working out at all. Yesterday i did tho, i went to the bleechers and ran up them 100 times..Yah not 150 tho:*(..but it was almost 11, and i wanted to get home.. Ok today i had on my mind the drive home from work that i wanted to go out to eat, ( Read more... )

god im so fuckin bored. Another miserable day it looks like. Last night i purged, i didnt binge but i didnt work out so yah i had to do something. I was in so much pain last night i had to go to the bathroom and it just wasnt happening(ha im sorry)..i finally went, when i did i sware i think i took parts of my stomach w. me.My mom and brother left ( Read more... )

Ok so im sick w. a cold, i didnt get it until i left my house today in a hurry cus i was late to class and my hair was wet from the shower. I woulndt mind so much if i wasnt hungry from being sick but i still got an apetitie. Neways so i did really well today nooo binging!! and this girl i gave my number to called me today:) and she def wants to ( Read more... )

today was a veryy bad day ( Read more... )

im worried about alot . Im worried about my dad. i had this horrible dream that me and my mom were living in this couped apartment one room, we had nothing, absolutletly nothing, I kept crying for my dad. My dad doesnt take care of himselve,im scared im going to loose him.Im scared of life i think. Im scared of gettin older.I wanna cry right now. i ( Read more... )

Yeah, so its 4 o clock in the morning on Sunday. I beleive my last purge was wednesday night?..So, my body hasnt been feelin well. Friday was reallly really bad.I always walk the stairs at college to get to class.When i gotup there my head killed, chest killed, body was so fuckin strianed out. Its from the purging. When i finally got home at 4 pm ( Read more... )