i haven't written in my livejournal for ages. but i just can't seem to vent on myspace blog. i'm so fucking sad. it's so stupid, i am so stupid. i'm such a sucker, i can't believe i fell for all his kisses and all his words. he swept me away, he made me smile, he made me dance, he sang silly jimmyeatworldsongs to me, he sent me a billion text ( Read more... )

i can't take this anymore. i hate everyone. nothing i do is every good enough for anyone. its great when someone the one person you trust and is suppose to be your best friend makes you cry.

my day as follows:

it's my roomies birthday

i have a 102 fever but won't tell her cuz i would hate to ruin her day...

i think i have pneumonia, wait i know i do, i just hope my lungs wait 2 more days to collapse

i am cranky and evil at this moment

i have all these thoughts running in my mind and i just hate questioning anything....i don't want to ( Read more... )

when he is filled with apathy and there is nothing that i can do but read his words.

+ melissa's birthday party ( Read more... )

soo much to do soo much to do....
and all i want to do is talk to him....

i could talk to him for hours and never get tired of hearing his voice
he amazes me with his thoughts
he has captivated me
the butterflies still won't cease

i've been stuck in the house for the last week. grantid i get to spend quality time with paige (she has been home sick all week) but i need to leave my house. someone please save me. i still have 2 more weeks without work sooo hopefully my phone will be ringing MEliSSA AND RACHAEL!!!!! paige will be returning to school tomorrow so i have all ( Read more... )

wow, it's amazing how quitting your job that makes you miserable, can show results in just 2 days.  i am sooo much more relaxed and non stressed out.  i'm glad that i am able to give myself a well deserved vacation.   do you remember when i use to love to write all the time; i wish i still did.  but now it seems that i can never get my thoughts ( Read more... )

so i haven't written in my livejournal for the devil knows how long. i guess i just had to do some healing inside before i could but fingers to keyboard. i guess you could say i feel empty inside. grantid i have a wonderful daughter to fill my heart but there is just something missing. last year from september on was a really tough time for me ( Read more... )