have i been? amazing ( Read more... )

don't send comments! unless your my friends, my real friends. and don't send comments unless your not fucking afraid to say who you are also. don't try and give advice about a situation you know nothing about, i let him go, he's fucking gone. and from reading my journal entries you can say i am psycho, that's fucking funny since i don't write ( Read more... )

last night i bid goodbye to someone i have been friends with since i was 15. the worst part of it all, i haven't seen her since bret and i broke up 3 months ago. instead of sucking it up, i was a bad friend and avoided a friend that i love and a town that i love. i had an awesome time last night. can't wait until jaime and johan come back from ( Read more... )

woke up from having the worst nightmare. what sucks worse it was about bret. and i can't even pick up the phone to make sure that he is ok. i sent him an email, hoping that he will reply, but who knows if he will even do that. i am so sick of finally getting to that point of numbness and having it all fucked up, with just a simple dream. it ( Read more... )

woke up for no reason whatsoever. i hate that i can't sleep. halloween was sucky...i really miss bret. you would think by now the feeling would go away, but it's still here. ahhh heartbreak ( Read more... )

sorry i didn't end up at hell last night. when missy picked me up, i threw up. i wasn't feeling too hot all night, than it all of a sudden it hit me. i was so pumped to go out and paint the town black. oh well next time. i am staying in the house tonight (unless a certain boy calls me and takes me to see texas chainsaw massacre)working from 1 ( Read more... )

508-558-0589 MY CELL PHONE NUMBER!!!! melissa call me if you ever want to go out
!!!!! i always want to go out!!!!!!! i have so much i want to tell you guys. oh HE fucked some girl, it broke my heart even more. does he even realize that when i talked to him on the phone the other night that it was killing me inside to be just his friend.

went out with my boss for some drinks...ended up at jerkys, i actually had a great time, always fun to people watch. a guy that shops at my store with his girl friend all the time was there, we started talking than asked me if i would kiss him because he may never get a chance to in his lifetime, so fucking hilarious. than cute boy at the bar ( Read more... )

it's hard knowing that right now he is on his computer. i want to instant message him, but i know that i can't. i miss him. it's funny because sometimes things will happen or i will see something and i just want to call him and tell him cuz i know he would laugh or want to buy it, and i can't. i can't i can't i can't i can't. i hate that i can'

got to love reruns....i just saw 90210 the episode of the "spring fling"...
i hate the cold air...it reminds me of him...