I was looking back at my journals from may and the begining of june and I was doing really well. July sucked and I gained all the weight back. grr... I've been back on track for about a week and a half. Yippie! Anyway, this next month is going to be hard but I have to do it. My happiness depends on it. Heres somethings I need to work on ( Read more... )

Wow, I haven't updated in a LONG time. Sorry about that. I've been so extremely lazy. I haven't lost any weight in that time. Whole crap, I've been shitty. BBBBUUUUTTTT I'm fasting today. Yippie. I love fasting. Today has been easy. Tomorrow will be alot harder. Saturday is going to be supra hard but I can do it. I know I can. I have to eat sunday ( Read more... )

So i woke up this morning and I thought it was saturday. I turned off my alarm and got back into bed. Then I though... no, its Friday. Damn it! I have to get up... Bitches. Then, I was in the shower and I realized it was only thursday...grr. What a way to start the day. Anyway, I'm fasting this weekend. I don't have Kaleb for a week so I'm going to ( Read more... )

I am soooo hungry. But I WILL BREAK THIS ADDICTION WITH FOOD! Fuck, this is hard. I think that if I get through today. Tomorrow will be so much better. Plus I know I would hate myself if I ate. I would cry... I really would. I will do this. I will do this. Flippin' A. I have to do this. Food is nothing to me. Beauty, thinness, perfection... these ( Read more... )

So I know I'm supposed to be fasting but I had to eat a little at chris's for lunch. Normally when I eat I can't stop myself but today it was easy. I had a few bits of a hamburger and some corn. I was proud of myself. I don't know if I could do it cause I was a chris's or that is girlfriend was there or some combination of both of that but I was ( Read more... )

I found someone to fast with for the next couple of days. Yeah! I want to do it for 3 -5 days. We are starting tomorrow. Today I didn't have that much to eat. I had one hamberger. I made some for Kaleb but ended up eating one myself. It kinda makes me feel gross. Other than that I did really good. I have to go to a lunch and dinner for Kalebs ( Read more... )

I finally got more hydroxycut. That stuff helps with my cravings so much. I don't even have any desire to eat today but I have to go out to eat with my family for my dad's and Kaleb's birthday. I'm really angry and I don't want to go. I think I'm going to pull the whole I have a stomach ache thing... or just get a salad. We are going to a steak ( Read more... )

How do you get help if you think you need it? Maybe my eating behaviors and obsessions are a part of something bigger... like maybe a personality disorder. I don't know. I know as a psychology major, we all diagnose ourselves and others around us alot, but I really do think I meet the requirements. Here are the requirements ( Read more... )

So this weekend sucked. I hate being by myself. Ever since my mom said what she said way back in the day, I can't eat around people but when I'm alone, I totally pig out. I wish I liked to throw up. Damn it. That would make this so much easier. This week has to be better. I think I'm going to do that 2-4-6-8 thing this week and repeat it over and ( Read more... )

Yesterday sucked! I ate so much at my cousins graduation party. Seriously, probably around 2000 calories, maybe more. I just stuffed it all in. It was so gross now that I look back at it. The good news is today I haven't eaten any calories. Well, I had one jolly rancher and thats like 22 calories. Plus, I left work early and came home and went ( Read more... )