I just need to write. I need to think of the right words to say. I had a long conversation tonight with Evan (my future hubby) over the phone, and it was soooooooooo awful. I think I made him cry. We were talking about my weight issues (I brought it up in the first place), and I was telling him how I literally DO NOT care anymore. I literally said ( Read more... )

 ass. sorry for the language. I'm back again people! And this time, for good. Seriously. Here is a bit of an update on my life ( Read more... )

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I'm engaged!! =]

Evan asked me on Saturday at the Minneapolis Sculpture Garden =] my ring is GORGEOUS!!!


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I binged. I hate myself when I binge. I hate making myself sound like I am one of those people that do stupid things all the time, but, I'm only human, but with a problem with binge eating. I ate a medium pizza, Reeses peanut butter cups (two Big Cups), and I have no idea how many Dutch Crunch Jalepeno and Cheddar chips I ate...probably half of the ( Read more... )

Well, today is alright. I weighed in at 254.2, but you know what? That's ok, I deserve it. I have been eating pretty crappy for about four days now, so I was actually pretty pleased when I saw 254.2...I thought I was well up in to the 260's again...eeek! But, its all good, and I'm not going to freak out. Back on track as of now. So far I have had a ( Read more... )

So, I am happy and sad at the same time...oh the joys of being a woman. I went dress shopping today for our Spring Banquet here at my school (which is a formal near the end of the semester). I found my dress! Totally cute. Its black, its kind of cup-cakey looking...lots of ruffles on it...I like it...a lot. Also, bought my shoes! Red RED high heels ( Read more... )

So, I forgot to weigh in this morning, and I really don't want to do it right now...soo...tomorrow.

Well, I have the flu. Brilliant. On the bright side ( Read more... )

Alright people. I need your honest opinions. Ready? Here we go ( Read more... )