I took my friend to the airport today. He's such a wonderful guy, but I feel like I'm setting myself up for hurt again. I mean, maybe he's changed, but I can't see anything until it actually happens. He really is a great guy but I really believe he's either still hung up on his ex, or maybe he is living in the past with certain issues. He knows ( Read more... )

At times, I really want to know what it is about me that people don't like. Obviously, there is something wrong with me, otherwise I don't think I would be alone. The only person that I thought knew me hates me. He doesn't even want to talk to me. I thought we weren't meant to be together, but I thought wrong I guess. Then there's AJ. I don't know ( Read more... )

Well my friend is staying with me for the weekend. I don't know.... Lev and I are completely over and done with. He was such a jerk. On the plus side, I started talking to Aaron again, thank God. I have really missed him. I should have talked to him last night; I was so wasted, I ended up breaking one of my Smirnoff bottles against the wall and ( Read more... )

seems like just yesterday ( Read more... )

Well today I gave Lev an ultimatum. If he is not here in 4 months and 3 days, it is over. I've been waiting long enough. I don't know what else to say to him, because he isn't trying. I've been putting 150% into this relationship and he has been putting none. It's not fair. I've lost everyone close to me and that I ever cared about. I don't know ( Read more... )

Well Lev finally got granted his passport. He'll be here hopefully by my birthday (October 9). I turn 22 this year. Not much difference from 21. I want to go back to India. It is so beautiful there. I went and saw Justin not too long ago. He is such a sweetheart. I care about him so much. I don't know. We're having the wedding at the Toledo ( Read more... )

Well I saw Lev in India. We are more in love than ever. HE's coming here in a few months and we're getting married in Put-In-Bay. I can't wait. It was WONDERFUL being with him. Wrote some more poetry.. More laters... :)

Well, I'm still getting ready for my trip to India and for the wedding. I've dropped some of my friends. I'm not sure if it was the best thing, but they'll never understand. At times, I think I'm going nuts. Maybe I am. Who knows. Maybe when I get to India, I'll want to stay there. FOREVER. Nobody would miss me anyways. Oh well. I love my Levlin ( Read more... )

Well I am completely happy. I leave for India in less than 2 months!!!! This is going to be super short. Gotta go to church.

Well, I have accepted Jesus Christ into my heart, and to be quite honest, I feel a whole lot better. Plus, I'm just a whole lot happier. I pray and go to church. It's funny, I really like this church I'm going to, it's a lot of fun. I don't really have much to say. Bless you!