WELL TODAY WAS REALLY CRAPPY. I GOT CALLED IN TO WORK, WHICH REALLY PISSED ME OFF. PLUS I HAD TO RESCHEDULE MY RAPE COUSELING. GRRRR. MEGHAN IS LUCKY I DIDN'T SEE HER. I AM REALLY STARTING TO HATE PEOPLE AND MYSELF. :( LETS SEE: I'M NOT ABLE TO GO TO SCHOOL THIS FALL SO = FAILURE. WORK REALLY SUCKS, I GET SCREWED ALL THE TIME. AT TIMES I REALLY ( Read more... )

I JUST EMAILED AARON. I DON'T GET HIM. AT TIMES, I JUST WANT TO SAY SCREW HIM. HE HURT ME REAL BAD. AND HE ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT HE DIDN'T WANT TO BE ON MY LIST OF GUYS THAT HURT ME. HE'S REALLY GETTIN THERE. I JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE. THEN, HE GETS HIS "GIRLFRIEND." I TOLD HIM, "I WISH YOU THE BEST." HE TOOK THAT AS A LINE THAT I WASN'T GOING TO ( Read more... )

That's all I can say, is wow. I spent the last half hour talking to my ex-boyfriend, Mike. Now, my mind is really confused. He just called me out of the blue, to apologize. I don't know yet, what to think. A part of me still misses him. I don't know. A part of me wants to hate him forever and then another part wants to forgive him and maybe give it ( Read more... )

TODAY, OUR ROLES WERE SWITCHED. FOR ONCE, I WAS THE ONE GIVING ADVICE TO AARON. I DON'T KNOW. HE WAS DOWN IN THE DUMPS TODAY, AND I WISH HE WASN'T; I MEAN UNDERSTAND WHY, BUT I DON'T LIKE TO SEE HIM LIKE THAT. WHEN HE'S NOT HAPPY, I'M NOT HAPPY. I KNOW IT SOUNDS STUPID. BUT HE REALLY IS MY MOST TRULY BEST FRIEND. I DON'T KNOW WHERE I'D BE WITHOUT ( Read more... )

ONCE AGAIN, I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH AARON. WHAT CAN I SAY? HE IS TRULY A GOD-SENT BLESSING, AND HE REALLY IS SUCH AN AMAZING PERSON. I REALLY MEANT IT WHEN I SAID HE IS MY ANGEL. HE'S MY ANGEL, MY GUARDIAN, PROTECTOR, MY BEST FRIEND. I CAN OPEN UP TO HIM AND SAY THINGS TO HIM THAT I'VE NEVER TOLD ANYONE IN MY 20 YEARS OF EXISTANCE. HE HAS ( Read more... )

In society, many people look at the outside of someone. Whether that person has high self-esteem or low self-esteem, it doesn't matter. What matters is how honest you are to yourself. If you're not honest to yourself, how in the heck can you be honest with other people? My teacher always told me, "life is always going to throw you a curve ball, it' ( Read more... )

WELL TODAY, OR EARLIER THIS MORNING, I ENDED UP TALKING ON THE PHONE WITH AARON FOR 4 HOURS! I CAN SAY THOUGH, THAT IT WAS THE BEST AND MOST WONDERFUL CONVERSTAION I HAVE EVER HAD WITH ANYONE. I DON'T KNOW. MY HEART IS SO CONFUSED RIGHT NOW. I DON'T WANT TO GET HURT AND I KNOW AARON WILL NEVER HURT ME. HE IS SUCH AN AMAZING GUY, AND WHOEVER HE ( Read more... )

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Well, I talked to Aaron on the phone for 70 minutes today. Went to the Polish Festival. It was kinda sad, because my grandpa and I used to go every year. We USED to polka dance a lot. :) I miss him. I'm thinking about going to California, to visit Aaron. :) LOL. We'll see.
More later, got to go do homework... YUCK