i haven't written in here in over a year.

and i liked the feeling of not needing an anonymous blog anymore.
but i'll never delete it.

when i was younger and staying at the cottage for a week, my aunt, sister and i went to go watch face/off with john travolta and nicolas cage ( Read more... )

a woman last week at the restaurant told me that it looked like i had a block on, and maybe that was why i had travelled so far to spend my summer abroad. i was astonished that this woman i had merely given background information on my life pin pointed that about me. it's not the reason i came, but a big part of my was/is afraid to settle with ( Read more... )

i've been here a week ( Read more... )

he kissed me
told me he was jealous of me for going to italu
then he kissed me again
then he told me not to bother and walked away.

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY

i fucken hate guys. no, no, just him.

and i have no idea where my roommate is.

i lied to my old creative writing professor tonight ( Read more... )

i know people think i'm crazy right now, i know it ( Read more... )

i wish you could pay people to make decisions for you ( Read more... )

okay, fine. so maybe i still like him. maybe it's just the competition within myself, to see if i'd still be able to get him - i've already won that ( Read more... )

i haven't been wanting to do much of anything lately.
so i haven't.
and i've kind of been alienating people as i do that.
and screaming bitchy things out in my head.
and being bitchy to those around me.
and hating my life yet doing nothing to change it.
but at the same time, content.

that's weird, isn't it?