im going to see mustard plug tonight and im gonna eat vallium and clonopin until this state makes some kind of sense....i might possibly overdose tonight and not even get the desired effect.  who knows.  thats not the point.  in fact there is no point.  i just wasted your time and im not sorry.

youre welcome

pozhalusta!

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 alcohol and pills....thats the only thing thats been going on in my life lately.   i didnt really get outta bed until 7pm today because i took 7 ambien last night .  well i took the first one and blacked out and tried to eat the rest of the bottle as usual.  i didnt even show up for work today and nobody came looking for me.  hmm...wierd.  i get ( Read more... )

i went awol for a  day this week and i didnt even get in trouble for it.  there is a kicker though.   i checked myself into the psych ward at the post hospital, telling them i was having a nervous breakdown.  now theyve got me on chemical restraints.  the doctor said he didnt want to diagnose me with "post-traumatic stress disorder" just yet.  i ( Read more... )

so as of  tonight im going to be awol....i might have to go to jail for a while.

but at least ill still have my life

 im getting kicked out of the army in the next few months no matter what it takes....

dont shit where you live

pssssst!
im much better at hunting than you are at hiding

try me

"we rose at 3 am.  it has been raining for 8 days and everything is drenched...our sleeping bags and our tents, inside and out.  our clothes are soaked through and through and we shiver hard in the black wet mornings when we rise.  its not easy to be cheerful.  theres no reason to be...

this is the moment whe one needs morale.  this is the time it ( Read more... )

 i need a hug

 i spent the better part o the week in bloomington with erin.  it was really nice and relaxing, even though we didnt really get to hang out much.  but it was cool.  my cars fucked up and i drove it fucked up all the way from north carolina to fort knox where i am now and will be for the next couple months doing some training.  this place sucks.  i ( Read more... )