don't leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love. hmm. just something that made me think. i know it was wrong of me to hang out with him when you were gone. but our lips never met. as if that makes a difference. i was in the wrong. wallowing in guilt. you still don't know the absolute ( Read more... )

a strange feeling is overcoming my body. my status that ive prided myself on is gone. and this new one seems too hard to get used to. i dont have regret, just knowing i made a mistake. and this one isnt fixable. its gone, and i cant get it back. i wish i wasnt drunk. i wish he wasnt drunk. i wish we were capable of making the right decision. it was ( Read more... )

why. why are you high right now. why are you in a different state of mind. i wanted to talk. thats all. ive barely seen you these past couple of days. maybe that doesnt matter to you. but it does to me. your effort is lacking. and i just want to hold you. listen to constantine. its our song remember. i just want to laugh. i love being with you. i ( Read more... )

ugh. i need a cigarette ( Read more... )

wow. i haven't updated in forever. so. my weekend. well the blood brothers show was most definitely awesome. riding with angie, mal and daniel was the best. they're so entertaining and i love them. then friday was korinas but it wasnt everything i expected. i didnt end up staying the night either. but it was alright. then saturday we went to morp. ( Read more... )

so. if only i was as happy as i seem. and wish. and want to be. i should be. but things are holding me back right now. stressing me out. but life isnt fair, right. but i am looking forward to this weekend. ill be going to the something corporate show. and then on saturday, a fun party i hope. and also, ill be spending my day with luke and rj. while ( Read more... )

wow. so i cut my hair tonight. i was bored. though i know that no one will even be able to tell. i just had to get the split ends off anyways. of the hair i have left! ugh. i hate hate hate it. and i just want these damn diet pills to start working! but i guess we dont all get what we want, eh. but tonight was still great. i found that im not the ( Read more... )

today me and korina went on a walk. and found a cat. her name is esquivel and she is the nicest ever. but i guess im grounded until i take her to the pound. but i refuse to! shes no problem, she just wants love! ha. today was wonderful. me and daniel celebrated our one month. and i dont care if no one else celebrates that, because we did. and i ( Read more... )

im sick. im cramping. snot is running down my nose like crazy. so i left school. im just too cool. tomorrow will be one month and to me, that is amazing. i dont think ive ever felt this way about someone, and actually have them return the sentiment. its exciting, but scary at the same time. i want to be cautious, and hold my heart. keep it in a ( Read more... )

im sorry were drifting apart ( Read more... )