I knew it was going to be lonely. Hard.... but I never expected this.... and its barely even begun....

There are so many things going on. What do I do? WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!?! I dont know what else to do, I just need to scream, to be taken care of until this is over, the problem is.... who knows when this will end? Will it ever end? I mean, seriously, what do I do? ugh! Help me. Someone, anyone. I hate the fact that I just write in this when I am upset ( Read more... )

I'm in hell and I can't see a way out of it. Why do I even try?

My friends from high school ( Read more... )

I know its so cliche to do this. everyone is thinking about it right now and its so sad. As I think about it personally I think about what you meant to me. Having never had you as a teacher I feel I missed out. But I did get to know you through yearbook, and for that I will be forever thankful. You brought light into the lives of everyone that you ( Read more... )

I came to a realization tonight. she fucked with me so much. and its still having its effects. and its not fair for me to let her have that kind of power over me. but it just makes me so goddamn mad. still, i would drop everything and do anything for her, but would she do the same for me? or even half that? not a chance.

Is it a bad thing if I just call her up and totally bitch her out? Does she realize how much this is hurting me? She must right? Its been a little less than a year and still, I have absolutely no idea what happened. I need some kind of closure. How do I go about getting it without ruining everything (which right now isn't much, but still, I suppose ( Read more... )

I hate it here

I miss NYU. where its always the time and the place to drink... and you never have to do it alone...

Its weird when you know you don't like someone (romantically that is-you love them as a friend) but seeing them with someone else kills you... its not that you don't want them to be happy. You totally do its just... I don't know what... I guess that's what's so weird about it... but it hurts so much.... ugh!!! and maybe this is just me and it doesn ( Read more... )