I guess laying in bed you realize who cares about you and who doesn't. Why do I always fight with this feeling of NO ONE caring? I know Don cares, I mean fuck he's being wonderful. Of course Mom, Dad and my sister give two fucks. What about everyone else. The people I'M there for all the time? Why do I fight this all the time. I'm always doing ( Read more... )

I forget I have this journal. No one really sees it, so anything funny I want to post I just do it on myspace. I guess this is where some normal every day thoughts should go. My normal every day thought is the same. "I'm fat, I want to be thin, I feel ugly, I want to feel hot." Will I ever just be over it? I've only felt good about myself once(that ( Read more... )

Well, I guess I can add homeowner to my list of things to do when I grow up. When Don was up 2 weeks ago we had to stop by Allen's house in Akron to pick up Don's wallet. When we were there we noticed a house for sale across the street. Allen suggested that we take a look at it. I thought about it, didn't really want to live "in" Akron but hey, ( Read more... )

Fall is early in Ohio, and this makes me a happy girl. I love this time of year. It's perfect for hoodies, hot tea, pumpkin soup, making out and playing in the leaves. It's best when you have a partner. Mine will be up hopefully this weekend. We will snuggle, laugh, make out and enjoy some hot tea. The leaves haven't started to change, prolly wont ( Read more... )

Yeah, I'm going to marry the most amazing boy ever. Don came in this past weekend. I'm pretty lucky I'd have to say. He's amazing, our sex is amazing and we're perfect for eachother. I can't WAIT to be his wife. FUCK! That's going to be amazing. I love him.

...and I love all of you too.

<3

ex.oh.ex.oh.

It's only 10:45 on Friday, and so far I've : Got hit on, honked at and an old man winked at me. Either Ohio people have no standards, Baltimore people have no taste, or I'm the first girl this town has seen with a full set of teeth. Either way, it's amusing and fun. My new kitty is sleeping on my lap. When I get up or move him, he starts to cry. He ( Read more... )

Well now I feel like yesterdays blog is a damn lie! ha! I ended up going to my mom's house for dinner. She was making porkchops and I just couldn't pass em up. I also ended up going to Amy's house. When I was over there the other day there were a whole bunch of baby kittens running around, I'm sure that someone just dumped. Well I got really ( Read more... )

This week has been full of good and bad for me. I'm like a roller coaster, up and down. Today I'm just going straight home (well my sister's house), no stops at mom's today. I just need to take a hot shower, read my book, perhaps rent "Who's that Girl" and fall asleep. I'm not going to rush to my mom's house for dinner, stop at Amy's house and ( Read more... )

Well first week in Ohio alone is over. I did pretty well on not expressing in anger how much I miss Don, well until last night. I'm pretty much the dumbest girl ever. I'm just going to say that I'm not upset on WHO he's hanging out with. Cause I know the people he's hanging out with, and I like em...a lot. So that's not the problem. The is however ( Read more... )

I should have gone home to Ohio this weekend. I'm so fucking upset right now.

Mary