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Where Am I Going Now?
I miss Thomas Jay.
I wish he could talk to me, but I understand his reasons for not doing so. (or at least try to)
Jason is trying to cheer me up, and is being pretty understanding....
Sigh.
59 Days, 17 hours, 19 minutes, 43 seconds from 2:47PM today. -
I'm gonna write out highlights of my pregnancy
week 5- found out I was pregnant and admitted it after the 3rd pregnancy test at Planned Parenthood ( Read more... ) -
poem not edited yet
I laid my head down last night ( Read more... ) -
stupid quiz thing
42 of the MOST Random Questions Ever ( Read more... ) -
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So Taylor was over all weekend and today we went downtown...It was okay...there was a bit picking but not a whole lot. I want it to last forever ( Read more... ) -
And all of this...was all your fault...and all of this....
And I keep lying to myself. And I hate this...I hate just...Hating and complaining. But I have no where else to put all this negativity. I feel like I can't even be alone with myself anymore. Everyday this week, the urge to overdose has been rising and rising. I feel edgy. I keep getting angry or set off by little stuff. I feel out of ( Read more... ) -
Hmm...
I went to therapy and med review today...had some conversations with my grandmother. Kind of painful ones. I guess the doctors are trying to prevent me from becoming a skizo. That's why they're using the hard meds on me. I hate this. Why can't I have a normal fucking brain? I wish I could just *poof* disappear. I feel so....crazy lately. ( Read more... ) -
I'll feed you stupid lines all about cleaning up my act...
I'm having an edgy night...I really feel like cutting and cutting bad like a long deep one....But not so bad I have to go to the hopsicle. But I just gah...I don't know whats going on with my head...I was fine earlier....Went to Taylors and left at about 645...hmm. It was okay...nothing bad happened. BUt I got home and ate and read a note from ( Read more... )
