i haven't posted in forever. mostly because i don't care, but i haven't had much to say really despite the state of my life ( Read more... )

i have one minute to get to class, but i'm at second cup up the street from the university. i went to derek's house to blaze and man i thought i'd be aight, cause we smoked like 3 hours ago. pretty sure i feel sick, and my coffee isn't helping. haven't called paul yet either....not sure thats a convo i should have at the moment ( Read more... )

i'm in ottawa currently; i arrived on thursday evening. so far its been fantastic. it hasn't been stressful at all - its been pleasant and full of ordinary events. i've met up with tierra and vlad a few times, mel and i have hit up starbucks way to much already and chilling with erin is always a treat, and pats party with jordan, irene, alex, ( Read more... )

k few details to update on. i did just inder 6 weeks of the detox. i still have not had any starches to date, and only had 2 hard candies and a marshmellow to count towards the sugar intake. caffeine on the other hand, has been a different story. mmmm ( Read more... )

so in exactly 39 mins i will be on day 15 of my detox. there have been a few times that its been hard for about 2 minutes. then i'm super relieved that i didn't give in and have to start all over ( Read more... )

I LOVE MY PINK STUDDED BELT! FUCK I LOVE IT....i'm wearing it to my show in st. catharine's tonight and all i have to say is WOOOOO PINK BELT. it'll go with the pink poodle!!

Update on the detox ( Read more... )

i had a realization at work today. it's so weird and random when this happens. I'll probably write a song about it. I started thinking about how I'm an adult now. If I'm not yet, i'm pretty damn close. I'm almost 24. Thats pretty scary. And I feel like I've got a lot of work to do in my life, for my own personal growth. I've started thinking that I ( Read more... )

so i guess its taken me a couple weeks to just calm the fuck down. i'm better, not too anxious, i'm just really blah. i really don't enjoy a lot of things anymore. i'm really pushing the band hard and i think they are starting to resent me. but fuck it, if they aren't willing to put in an effort then why am i spending hours setting up shows, tours ( Read more... )

i have always wanted to be the perfect daughter. i have always tried my absolute best to never disappoint my parents. i still have that mentality and really believe that no matter what i do, no matter what happens, there will always be SOMETHING that will defer my parents attention from me doing something 100%, that doesn't warrent pointing out ( Read more... )