i feel really annoyed and want to go home and curl up in my bed... i have so much work and no desire to do much of anything... somehow, my body continues to move... i feel like i am going to spin out of control any minute ( Read more... )

I am significantly better than my last entry. Not 100% but so far this semester has been pretty decent. I did some shitty things over break, but I stopped. I kind of scared myself but I am fine now. Classes are going alright. The whole roomate situation is pretty good. Boys are always a fuzzy part, but I have better intentions for what I ( Read more... )

It is the first marker in my college career. Most would say that they are going home for the first time at Thanksgiving, but for me that would be incorrect. I have my car at school so I have gone home several times. I was home on sunday and today is tuesday and tomorrow evening I will be home. College is not what I was expecting. I feel ( Read more... )

while i write this, i write it with a clear idea of what i want to say, yet ironically i can barely see the screen because my contacts are out, my glasses are gone, and i am looking at everything blurred. I look at my last entry and realize that time has really flown. I made varsity softball, i did APs, i had surgery for the first time, I ( Read more... )

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so i'm writing from columbus.... i anticipated the worse and in return i actually had fun. the holidays often times are more stressful than what they rally should be, which is relaxing. I can say that I had a very relaxing time. Usually sitting around and watching movies isn't fun, but I enjoyed myself. I stayed in my pajamas with my family. I ( Read more... )

so i haven't posted in a while. livejoural use to be a ritual for me. Check my email, sign onto instant message, write/mostly complain on livejournal. Things are different yet the same. Senior year is stress that i never even knew existed. My counselor has been really helpful except for the fact that the colleges I applied to still haven't ( Read more... )

When did things become so fucking bad. Perhaps today is just a bad day, perhaps not. When did I grow to detest the people whom I considered my favorite people in the world. Now I just wake up and pretend. I pretend to be happy to be somewhere. I think I've become a world class actress becuase I've been fooling myself. I come home and I feel ( Read more... )

when did i start to go crazy? perhaps the rumors of senioritis are often misleading. Common side effects : extreme laziness, high levels of partying, stress from college apps. Where is the disclaimer saying that you are extremely emotional, and the only stress isn't from just college apps. I come home from camp and things start out great. In fact ( Read more... )

Posting from Camp Walden. Wow. This has been a wonderful and stressful summer. I wish that I had more privleges, but in the grand scheme of things, this year has been very fun. I loved going on days off with everyone. I wish I could have gone to this bar called The Pines. But I couldn't, and I survived. I wish I didn't hurt the people that I ( Read more... )