i think im gonna make a new lj so i dont have to edit my about me. pictures of me and aj still ew. actually i might just delete this idk why this shit is pointless no one reads it. im tryna get famouuuuuus

im stuck at jareds. alone. it's 2:30 now and he won't be back until 8:00. UGH ( Read more... )

God, I cant even explain the way i feel about him. It's like trying to reach the other end of the universe. He swears he knows. But I know he doesn't.

I feel bad. His life seemed so wild before me. I feel so boring to him!

i read madd entries back.
it was funny to see me talking about jared.. and hooking up with ray. wow
weird

but.
i can't believe i still feel this way.
:(

carnival was lame
i wanted to be drunk. i want my cake and eat it too.
fck

okay i'm going to go to meetings again, just because i know it helped me become a better person. i was so great last summer and i gave up and i can totally see the difference ( Read more... )

So i signed on livejournal because i wanted to find a survey for myspace because i'm THAT bored. and something popped up with AJ's journal and he posted one about six months ago and i read it ( Read more... )

if i never saw him again i'd be more satisfied. he left me, for dan. i'm not sad, i'm used to it. i just dont understand what kind of guy that wuoldn't want a down as girl like me, whos always there. well someone will and summers the best time to be single and find out ( Read more... )

TECHNICALLY he didn't break up with me. but we're done. and i feel like everything is so much easier. The only problem is, all the times that he breaks up with me i'm super horny. i was going to kiss him on the lips but nahh. if he wants some he needs to make a move. and i'm not sure i'm going to give him any anyway. It was always rare for me to ( Read more... )

seriously, when he's sweet to me, i feel like thats the closest to heaven that i'll ever be. i feel like that's the only good in my life.

i'm done. nothing more about this until it gets better.

I don't thikn we're close at all. Oh well, i try. But maybe i shouldn't anymore ( Read more... )